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 The dreamscape didn’t immediately change. She wasn’t sure if it was because Tenshu wasn’t fully determined or if it was just because it had to sort through his mind to find another fear worth their time, stronger than his own guilt and worthlessness. When it changed, she knew exactly where they were going.

The dreamscape formed the familiar shape of the Sand Castle Palnokian base and Amadhay held her breath. She didn’t want to go in, didn’t want to see Ribbon or Stefan or any of the others. It was an automatic response and she had to swallow it down, pulling Tenshu to his feet from where he was still sitting, staring at tombstones. She tried not to notice the name on the one he sat before, but it was branded on her mind as she led him away.

Tairyn du Regen. She shouldn’t have felt anything, given that the man had betrayed her. He had sold her out to the Palnoki, told them everything about her. He had led them to her Indy. He had chosen Kimiko over her. He was nothing but a traitor to the end of his days. Still, she remembered the days when he was her only friend, when he had comforted her and been there for her.

She pushed him out of her mind completely as soon as they stood in front of the Sand Castle. This time, she was the one stalling and Tenshu impatiently pushed the doors open.

“What? Scared of what you might find?” he taunted. “Not excited to have a chance at killing Ribbon again?”

No. She wasn’t. In fact, she was anxious, afraid that that would be what she had to do. Because if it was, Tenshu would die. She couldn’t do it again, not when she dreamed about it, thought about it, tried to imagine all the ways that she could have changed the outcome. If it came down to killing Ribbon again, even a fake Ribbon, she would rather die.

So, honestly, when they roamed the building and found room after room empty, it was a relief. They went to all of the common areas, and Amadhay was positive that she smelled gingerbread cookies in the kitchen. She heard laughter in the sitting rooms. Thought she saw flashes of black, flowing skirts and cloudy puffs of hair at every corner. By the time they reached the rooms, Amadhay completely refused to go in.

She wasn’t sure if it was her own guilt lending to hallucinations, if part of Tenshu’s fear included Ribbon, or if his dreamscape was genuinely trying to mess with her. She didn’t care. She just wanted to go. She needed to get away from all the memories, but when she started to leave, the pulsing of the link reminded her that she couldn’t leave Tenshu, no matter what she was feeling. So instead, she focused on keeping her breathing even, standing just behind Tenshu so that he could check the rooms and she wouldn’t see anything, but also wouldn’t be shut outside if the door were to slam closed.

They had gone through most of the rooms and even Tenshu was becoming antsy. “We should have found something by now,” he said, slamming Kimiko’s door shut.

“Maybe this is all about the expectations?” she suggested hopefully, noting that he couldn’t stand to be touched by her. Where before, they’d been holding hands to keep close and to strengthen his energy, the longer they were in this place, the further he stood from her.

He barely spared her a glance, as full of scorn as it was, before stalking toward Nico’s room. It too was empty. That only left three, the three that they honestly should have check the moment his own was empty.

“Atlas or Ribbon?” Amadhay asked, her voice wavering. They could either go to her room, Atlas’ or Ribbon’s.

“I dunno, which one would you prefer killing?” he snapped.

Atlas, she wanted to say, but instead shook her head. “Which one are you afraid of?” she asked, not particularly sure why he’d have been frightened of either. From what she remembered the familial bond between Tenshu and those two had been incredibly strong, as if they were truly related.

He didn’t answer, and when he led them to the hallway she and Ribbon had shared, she tensed, not ready to go into Ribbon’s room. They didn’t. Instead, they entered her room. As the others, no one was in there. Unlike the others, all of her belongings were there, torn down and thrown around in someone’s anger. The canopy above her bed was pulled close.

They were leaving when Amadhay felt every hair on her body stand up. It was only her instincts that had her dropping and rolling out of the way, barely missing a spell so harsh that it made the stone floor bubble. She hopped to her feet, glancing to Tenshu, who was staring back into the room in horror, rather than shock, that told her he, at least had expected this. Knowing that there was only one place left in the room for the attacker to be, she turned back to her bed.

Sitting there was Atlas, with Ribbon’s dead body on his lap. She held back a cry, dropping down to her knees. A sob got caught in the back of her throat as she stared, unable to look away from the limp body of the woman, cradled to Atlas’ chest. His red eyes only focused on her and he couldn’t miss her when he threw another spell, this one slamming her against the wall hard enough that had she been in reality, it would have knocked her unconscious or, at the very least, dizzy.

She slumped against the wall, her eyes still focused on Ribbon. Her eyes were still open, a pale unseeing green. Her mouth was partially open and the ugly gash on her throat was so red, as if she had just killed her.

“You betray us,” Atlas whispered, sounding broken. She was ready to take another hit, she deserved it, but the magic that left him hit Tenshu. With a pained cry, Tenshu dropped to his knees as well, his body convulsing. “You betray Ribbon.”

“No,” Tenshu swore. “Never. I would never—” Atlas cut him off with another ball of magic that Amadhay felt keenly, now that her purple aura was nearly covering Tenshu.

“You would give up all that I’ve done for you for her. Turn your back on your family for her. Forget this,” Atlas’ hands went to Ribbon’s hair and for a moment, Amadhay feared that he would pull her head back to show her neck. He didn’t, instead petting her brokenly. All three of them were silent for a few clicks as Amadhay and Tenshu recovered from their hits.

Once Amadhay was able to stand, she avoided looking at Atlas and Ribbon, instead focusing on crossing to Tenshu. She didn’t make it, because the spell that came at her smelled of death and she threw herself back. She turned her attention to Atlas, who was gently lying Ribbon on the bed as if she were only sleeping and he didn’t want to wake her. His attention was on Tenshu and she was reminded that though he had attacked her, this was about Tenshu. Atlas wasn’t really there. She had to remember that.

“You know what happens when you betray the family,” he said menacingly, “You are removed from the family.”

Tenshu just nodded in reluctant agreement.

“Get off your ass,” Amadhay growled. “And fight him!”

Tenshu shook his head. “I can’t,” he whispered. Atlas paid no attention to Amadhay when she slowly approached, following behind him.

“You agreed to this from the beginning,” Atlas said sadly. “Though I never thought I’d have to do it.” Tenshu bowed his head when Atlas pulled his hand back for some kind of attack. Amadhay wasn’t sure if it was magic or if he planned to beat Tenshu to death, either way, she couldn’t allow it. She hadn’t come this far just to let Atlas kill Tenshu.

So she latched herself onto his back, doing her best to distract Atlas enough to get him away. When Atlas stopped and focused on detaching her, she barked at Tenshu. “Move out of the way!”

He barely moved in time before Amadhay and Atlas went tumbling down, into the wall. Atlas’ head hit, but she knew better than to hope that that would stop him. Taking a deep breath she readied herself for the kidney punch she saw coming even before he moved. She didn’t let that move her. Atlas was stronger than her, though, and it was only a matter of time before he got the upper hand and slammed her into the wall. She breathed rattily, feeling as if something had been broken, but didn’t let that stop her. She had to keep him down.

The red covering his hand made her jerk away to avoid a fireball to the gut. “How come he can use magic if I can’t?” she demanded softly, using her wit to keep her on her toes. She always had when sparring with Ribbon.

At the thought of Ribbon, she faltered, looking over to her lover. It was enough of a distraction for Atlas to grip her throat and squeeze even as his attention went to Tenshu, who was just standing there, though his fists clenched and his arm muscles flexed.

“Come here,” Atlas ordered and Tenshu did it.

And of course he did, because all of them just did whatever Atlas wanted. Everyone, everywhere did what Atlas wanted them to, whether they knew it or not, and the thought just made Amadhay so angry. Tenshu, Kimiko and Ribbon had befriended her because Atlas wanted it. She, herself, had stayed with the Palnoki because Atlas wanted it. Benjy and Christein had been hurt, so badly, so many times because Atlas wanted it. Ribbon had lied to her, attacked her, hurt her, tried to stop her, tried to kill her because Atlas had wanted it.

The violence in her permeated every muscle of her body and she vibrated with it. She could hardly feel his grasp on her throat. Her hands, her claws, because that was what they were, covered in some white energy she didn’t recognize, cut into Atlas. The first cut wasn’t hers, wasn’t her action because despite everything, she couldn’t imagine really hurting Atlas. She didn’t think she was strong enough, she didn’t think it would have made Ribbon happy.

But when she stabbed him again, it was all her. She kept stabbing until the white energy disappeared and she was just sticking her fingers, broken nails and all into him. Tenshu made a sick noise, and that was the only thing that made her stop, the reminder that someone was seeing the part of her that she tried to keep hidden. There was a line between someone who killed for a living and someone who enjoyed the suffering they could cause with a sadistic glee. There was an even bigger line between someone who killed and someone who ripped another person apart. One was a murderer, the other, a Feral. She wasn’t a Feral.

She jolted away from Atlas’ corpse, feeling worse by the click. Ribbon’s body on the bed, Atlas’ body on the floor, her covered in blood, reeking of it. She looked helplessly to Tenshu, who flinched away from her eyes.

“I did what I had to,” she whispered, her voice raspy in a way she remembered far too well.

Tenshu didn’t agree with her, but neither did he disagree with her. Instead, he took one last look at both his father in all but blood and his sister in the same, before leaving the room and leaving Amadhay there. It took her a bit longer to get up and follow him. Even though she knew it wasn’t real and was only a figment of Tenshu’s mind, she couldn’t stop herself from getting on the bed and lying beside Ribbon, breathing in her scent.

It was sick and she knew it, but she didn’t want to leave her, not again. The link throbbed and pulled taut, reminding her of what she was really doing there, but she didn’t want to go. She wanted to stay with Ribbon forever and she didn’t care if she were alive or not. She just wanted to be with her.

You are, Ribbon’s voice said in her mind. I’m always with you.

She shook her head. “Not really,” she whispered, wanting to cry but not capable of doing it on this plane of reality. “You’re gone.”

Only in body. A warmth came from nowhere, enveloping Amadhay for a moment before disappearing. And even if she were hallucinating, which she was used to because she hallucinated about Ribbon at least once a week, it felt better. She felt stronger. She felt closer to the dead woman. Taking a deep breath, she let go and immediately, the setting around her disappeared, leaving her floating above the ground, outside of the same bubble Tenshu had been stuck in to begin with.

He was inside again and she was outside, watching him as he paced there. Breathing deep, she turned her back to the bubble and entered, letting the remnants of it from before rejoin so that it was a solid barrier once more. She avoided eye contact with Tenshu, who watched her with a strange look in his eye.

“I thought you had left me,” he said.

“I didn’t,” she responded unnecessarily.

A whimper from the corner of the barrier made her turn her attention to see Tenshu again, this one in a ball, trying not to look at the other. That one was the one she was attached to via the link.

The other crept up behind her and spoke in her ear, one hand on her hip and the other on the side of her face, tilting her head away from his mouth. “You should have just left us,” he breathed into her ear.

She turned into him, vaguely aware that he hadn’t moved his hand and that now his arm was curled around her head, in the perfect position to twist her head and snap her neck. That was a careless mistake. “Isn’t a bit egoistical to be afraid of yourself?”

He gave her a sharp smile. “You would know.”

She tried to move from his grip, but instead of dropping to get away, she only gave him her hair to roll around his fist and he pulled her face up toward his own. Still, she continued their rapport. “I wouldn’t, actually. I don’t do the whole fear thing.”

He laughed in a mocking way that made her eye his torso. His muscles wouldn’t be the best to punch, but his stomach or throat would be. “You fear more than I do,” he taunted her. “Only I’m capable of fighting my fears.” He pulled her in close. “How about my desires? I don’t think I want to fight them.”

She tried to push away, but he had too good of a hold on her, because while she’d been thinking up a plan, he’d been implementing one. Christein always said that planning to the point of inaction was her largest flaw. “If you’re about to tell me that rutting with me is your biggest fear, I can assure you it’s unwarranted.”

“Shame,” he responded, running a finger up her spine in a way that made her shiver. “I think we’d have fun.”

“We’re not already?” she asked just before she kicked up her legs and dropped her weight, throwing him off-kilter when he suddenly had to hold all of her weight. He stumbled and falling on her backside gave Amadhay the upper hand. She kicked his legs from under him and flipped on top of him.

“Now we are,” he said with a smirk, easily flipping them when she wasn’t able to perfect her hold. She didn’t give him time to either, slithering out from under him and landing a quick, desperate kick at his spine. It hit, but it barely even effected the necromancer, because before she was standing again, he’d pulled her feet down and had a knee to her chest.

“I think I like you beneath me.”

She had a vague memory of Ribbon saying that before and that was what gave her the strength to roll to the side, taking him with her until she was on top with her knees at his throat. She glanced to the other Tenshu. “What do I do? Do I kill him? Try to combine you? What?”

That Tenshu didn’t get a chance to respond, before the one beneath her gripped her hair and used it to pull her down. She wished she’d listened to her instructors when they’d told her to either cut it or always wear it up and out of the way, even when she wasn’t expecting a fight. He head butted her, making her fall back on her back. A swift punch to her face was followed by a kick and she curled into a ball, knowing that he wouldn’t give her the chance to stand and that she couldn’t use her Gift in this plane.

Then again, she’d been able to somehow use a spell that she didn’t even known, so she figured trying wouldn’t hurt. Her attempt at teleportation was hit by a wall so hard that she was breathless. Tenshu took advantage of that to pull her to her feet.

“Oh, what should I do with her?” he asked the other Tenshu, mocking her previous question. “Fuck her? Kill her? What would you hate more?”

“Let her go,” the real Tenshu demanded, standing up. She wasn’t sure what had made him intervene, but she appreciated it, because the fear-Tenshu dropped her as if she were inconsequential.

“Finally,” he said, moving to the other Tenshu. The fight that ensued was rather, impressively short. She doubted that if she’d been pitted against herself it would have been nearly as short, but apparently knowing his own weaknesses was all Tenshu needed. Or perhaps the game was rigged for him to win. She wasn’t sure and she didn’t care. All she knew was that she was grateful when real Tenshu had used her hands to twist the neck of fear Tenshu. Because it was finally over.

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Her stomach emptied the moment she came together. She fell to her knees, vaguely aware that she was somewhere new. The veil between her and this realm had shifted once again, and instead of seeing everything through a fog of their combined black and purple auras, she now saw everything clearly. Tenshu stood in the center of a strange circle burned into the ground and though he tried to get out of it, he was stuck inside.

As she looked him over, she knew they had to be in his mind because he was a much darker, almost uglier version of himself. His hair wasn’t so much dark auburn as it was brown, with dried blood changing the color. His black clothes were an extension of his aura, made more of shadows and roiling darkness than fabric or any solid shapes. His hands were covered in gloves, blindingly clean white gloves and there was a tiny M cut into his chest, leaving a hole in his body. His angular face was sharper, as if it could be used as a knife. His arms, as much as she could see through the aura jacket, were covered in angry, red marks. They went deeper than any self-inflicted wound she’d been able to see on him and were open, but they were also the only wounds he still had.

But Goddess, he was still beautiful. His olive eyes were brighter than in reality, and shined a light that reflected all across the strange dreamscape, illuminating where he was looking. His hair was down, rather than in his normal ponytail and despite the dried blood, it worked to soften his face the same way it always did, making his features more feminine. He was as slender and lean as ever, and as far as she could tell, he hadn’t gained any height. If anything, with his hair down, he seemed a bit shorter. His every move exuded power and intelligence as he tried every way he could to leave the circle. His olive skin glistened with sweat and that was when Amadhay was able to realize that she was hot. This place was blisteringly hot.

When she made it back to her feet, wiping her mouth against the back of her hand, his eyes had landed on her and the difference was immediate. His face contorted with absolute hatred and he lost his senses, instead choosing just to slam against the invisible barrier separating them and she was happy to have ended on the other side, rather than in there with him. While she hadn’t expected him to welcome her with open arms, she still hadn’t expected that kind of reaction. She should have.

He and Ribbon had been incredibly close. They had been siblings, if not by blood, by bond. He had warned her that if she broke Ribbon’s heart he was going to hurt her. She had done much worse than just break Ribbon’s heart. She had stopped it. He had every right to hate her and she would have hated him if he hadn’t, but that didn’t change the fact that the difference hit her hard. The last time they had seen each other, he had comforted her. Now he looked like he wanted to kill her.

She took a step forward purely to counter her immediate instinct to take one back. That step was followed by another and another until she was standing directly in front of Tenshu, only the barrier separating them. She swallowed the lump in her throat, ignoring the taste of vomit on her tongue. This close to him, she could see that her aura was sustaining his, a thin strand of purple heading from her navel to turn into, or maybe meet, a similarly thin strand of black midair and flow into his navel. It moved right through the barrier and she hoped that nothing would sever it because his aura looked very weak in comparison to hers.

“What are you waiting for, huh?” Tenshu snarled, making her eyes snap up to his. “It’ll be easy for you to kill me too. I can’t do anything.”

She frowned, choosing to stay silent rather than say anything in response. It was best, because he went on when she didn’t.

“Did you just come in here to gloat? Killed Ribbon, now you get to kill me. Bet it makes you feel powerful.”

“How do we get you out of that?” she asked, the words coming out of her mouth without her permission. That hadn’t been what she wanted to say. She’d wanted to apologize, to beg for the forgiveness she knew he’d never give her. She wanted to swear that she’d never wanted to hurt Ribbon, that she was saving him for Ribbon. That she’d never kill him. But that was what came out instead.

He eyed her warily. “Why? So you can kill me first?”

“Why would I kill you here?” she asked, still not saying what she wanted to. “Sounds like a waste of my time and energy. The danger is coming soon and you need to be out of there.”

Tenshu laughed aloud. “Of course. Of course you aren’t the second task. My mind made you my guide. Had to pick the one person I hate more than myself.”

“I don’t know how to remove the shield. If you do, tell me.”

Tenshu snorted. “You can’t, which I know, so I don’t know why you’re asking me about things I know. I have to have another’s aura get me out. I need my weapon. I’m stuck here until I die. So you can stop torturing me, mind. I don’t want to see her anymore.”

He thinks I’m a figment of his imagination, Amadhay realized. “I am your weapon. I have my own aura. Tell me.”

Tenshu glared at Amadhay before shrugging to himself. “If it works, I’ll get out and get rid of you. I don’t know why my brain would have made a person into a weapon. That’s stupid.”

“You need me.”

“I guess I do. Press yourself into the wall.”

“What will that do?” she eyed the line forming the circle warily, not sure that she could trust Tenshu.

“It’ll make a hole I can escape through.”

She nodded, but didn’t move any further forward, though she meant to. “And when I do, will you attack me?”

“I’m going to reform you into a working weapon.”

“I’m not a creation of your energy. I am your guide and weapon, but I exist outside of your mind. I ask again. Will you attack me when I free you?” There was a strange formality to the way she was talking that confused her, but she assumed it had to do with being in his mind. He needed her to talk clearly.

“Yes,” he said venomously. “If you aren’t just a part of me, I am going to kill you, Atlas be damned.”

“It will kill you,” she replied, and she frowned, aware that her voice was emotionless. It was strange.

“If it kills you, I’ll be fine with dying.”

“Ribbon wouldn’t want that,” she responded instantly, and the way the words fell off of her tongue, she knew she was saying what she meant to. She bit her lip and stared him in the eyes, stepping forward even though his eyes were murderous. “She always said that you only win if you’re alive. Dying to kill me won’t help anyone. It won’t make you happy and she wouldn't have wanted it.”

She gave a soft hiss at the unexpected frostiness of the barrier. It froze her skin, a stark contrast to the blistering heat. She wasn’t sure when she’d closed her eyes, but when she opened them, the thin film of her aura was blinding her. She opened her mouth to say something, but instead felt magic entering there, closing up her throat and cutting off her air supply.

It was then that she realized she wasn’t seeing her own aura, but the magic of the dream realm. While it was the same glittering purple, it was pungent on her tongue and in her nostrils, thicker inside of her, heavier on her skin. She couldn’t breathe around it but it kept forcing itself inside of her. Close your mouth or you will drown, both voices yelled at her and with surprising ease, she snapped her mouth closed and fell backwards.

Before she could even gather her wits, something heavy landed on her. She shoved at it, still unable to see, but that didn’t help her. Her wrists were pinned above her head and a hand was around her throat.

Tenshu, she knew. Tenshu was trying to kill her, just as he said he would. She could feel his hair on her face, could smell the blood in his hair, the spicy tang of his aura, the scent of necromantic death. The choking sensation took her right back to Ribbon and she didn’t move. She didn’t fight it, just lay there, letting him squeeze her throat. After a few pulses of aura that she was sure indicated their hearts beating in sync, she could feel that his hands weren’t squeezing anymore, but were just touching her neck where the scar was.

When she opened her eyes this time, she could see, even if her eyes burned and felt wrong in a way she didn’t understand. Tenshu was kneeling on top of her, his eyes focused on hers as he gently fingered the mark Ribbon had left with her wire. There was something about the way he was looking into her eyes that made her not want to break the connection. He didn’t seem hostile, just broken. He was so sad, but in a strange way, almost accepting. Neither of them said anything, but she was sure that he was seeing the same thing she did on her bad days. He saw Ribbon in her eyes.

She blinked and the moment was gone.

Tenshu stared at her for a click before getting off of her. “Just remember how you did it so that when we come back here, you enter the barrier with that side outwards to allow you entrance and close it.”

She nodded mutely, looking away from him, over the empty flatlands. There was nothing there. She cut a look at Tenshu, who was looking wary. “Aren’t we supposed to be fighting something?” she asked.

Tenshu gave her a bitter laugh. “You missed the welcoming committee. Now you’re supposed to guide me through this place.”

She blinked. “I am?” she asked, looking around. There were no obvious paths. Nothing gave her any indication what she should do.

“Yup, you,” he said with obvious distaste. “Why are you even here if you don’t know what to do? Is Atlas just trying to punish me for something?”

She frowned, focusing on trying to find even the smallest sign of where to go. “I’m the only option right now.”

“Why not Atlas, then?”

She gave a huff of frustration. “Why do you keep assuming Atlas is here? He isn’t. It’s just you and me. If you’d prefer I just leave you to it, I sure as anything can do just that.”

“Why am I with you?” he asked suspiciously.

“Because you got hurt and I decided to help you out,” she said through clenched teeth.

“Where are Amaya and Cole? The last thing I remember is being with them and Semi.”

She gave a shrug. “I wouldn’t know.”

“You don’t know what you’re doing here. You don’t know where my friends are. Is there anything you do know?”

“Since I’ve kept you alive for the past six days, I’m going to say that yes, there are quite a few things I do know.”

Tenshu regarded her with an unimpressed look. “You should have just taken me to Mitch or Atlas.”

“Well, I didn’t,” she yelled, turning to face him fully. “I didn’t have time to look for anyone else and since I’m pretty certain that Cowboy would kill me on sight, I didn’t try too hard either way. So you have me, and you’re going to stop fucking complaining about it, or I will let you die, I swear to Goddess, I will.”

Tenshu opened his mouth to respond, but then his eyes went past her. “Well, at least you know how to bring the monsters out.”

She glared at him before looking behind her and flinched. The evil looking pegasus looked a little too much like Grits for her not to feel like this was catered just for her.

“I fucking hate pegasi,” Tenshu muttered under his breath, reaching for Amadhay and pulling her with him away from the barrier. “Whatever you do, don’t hit the barrier or else we won’t be able to get back in.”

She nodded, keeping her eyes on the black-eyed beast with large, flat teeth and enormous wings. Its hooves were as large as her head and the way it flicked its tail made it clear that even the creature’s hair was a weapon.

“What weapons did you bring?” Tenshu asked.

Amadhay stared at him blankly. “I was supposed to bring weapons?” she asked, flinching when the pegasus gave a loud, angry whinny.

“What the fuck did you think you were supposed to do? Stand around and look pretty? Of course you were supposed to fucking bring weapons, you mutt brained clear. We can’t use magic here!”

“How was I supposed to know that?” she demanded, shoving Tenshu to the side just in time to miss getting a hoof to the head. The pegasus gave her a long, calculating look before turning its attention back to Tenshu.

“You are the most useless—” Tenshu was cut off from what Amadhay knew was going to be a curse laden series of insults by the pegasus spreading its wings and effectively separating the two of them. And then it kicked back at Amadhay.

Only her natural mistrustfulness around horses kept her from having a hoof shaped dent in her head. She dropped down and rolled to the side. The pegasus snorted and she watched as the link between her and Tenshu pulled taut, going right through the creature. Think. Think. She watched Tenshu dodge the horses’ attacks with an easy grace that only came with practice, the same kind of practice she had with avoiding horse kicks, stomps and headbutts. He even had the foresight on how the pegasus would use its wings to attack him.

She was angry with herself for having come without any weapons. She knew better than to go anywhere without weapons, even if it was to a dreamscape. Even if she hadn’t been sure that she would be able to use them, she should have at least brought a knife. But no, she had been lounging in her room, in reaching distance of a gun. She could go back to reality and grab one, but Ribbon’s voice was telling her not to. She didn’t really think it was a good choice anyway. Tenshu seemed to get less alive every time she separated from him. She was pretty sure that it might actually kill him this time.

Don’t think, just do, a new voice whispered into her ear. She wondered, for a moment, just how many voices were going to occupy her mind in this dreamscape before doing as the voice instructed. She ran as fast as she could without using her Gift and once the link between her and Tenshu had some slack, she launched herself at the pegasus. Without it even looking, it tried to shove her away with its rump, but she grabbed hold of its snowy white tail hair and hung on.

When she slammed against its rump, with her full weight on the strong hairs, it let out an enraged whinny and turned in a circle, stomping its feet and attempting to use its hind legs to kick her off. While a few kicks managed to hit her pretty hard, she kept holding on until she saw an opportunity to climb higher. It trotted in place, making her bounce up and down in time. On one such upward movement, she grabbed its back mane and let the pull of gravity back down help her. It only took a few attempts of that before she was on its back. Once there, she looked down, to Tenshu who was distracting the pegasus by making it run into the barrier.

That barrier was the only thing they had working for them. With its attention split by trying to shake Amadhay off and trying to stomp Tenshu to death, it wasn’t exactly a threat to either of them.

“Now what?” she asked aloud.

“Did you manage to bring anything of worth with you?” Tenshu yelled to her, dancing to the side when the pegasus tried for his head again.

“I wasn’t really expecting to be doing any fighting!” she yelled, gripping tightly to the mane when it took to the air and flew in circles. She felt nauseous.

“Nothing? A hair pin? A fake boob? Anything?”

She wanted to hit him, but was too busy trying not to be sick on the pegasus’ back. “Don’t you think I would have stabbed this thing or bludgeoned it to death if I had something?” she demanded.

“Then I guess we’re dead.”

Wings are fragile one of the voices muttered in a tone that told Amadhay that the speaker was irritated with her. The pegasus landed heavily, its breathing heavy.

 “Sounds like we’re wearing it out!” Tenshu called.

Amadhay lifted her leg. She only had one chance. If she messed this up, she was going to fall off and it would stomp her to death. When the pegasus reared up again, with its wings poised, ready to take flight, Amadhay kicked the center of one wing as hard as she could.

She could hear the fragile bones breaking under the sound of the pegasus crying out in pain. Its wing fell limp at its side and just by pure luck, she landed heavily against its other wing, falling off. She caught onto the wing and that one, too, seemed to break under her fingers. She fell hard on her back on the ground, but quickly rolled away from the injured pegasus. Once again, luck prevailed, because she rolled into Tenshu, not the barrier, and both watched the injured pegasus.

When it didn’t automatically heal, Amadhay took a deep breath in relief. It was going to be difficult enough to take it down, even with it injured, without it healing itself like real pegasi did. She wasn’t sure whether she should thank the dreamscape or Tenshu’s mind, so she mentally thanked both before focusing on how she could manage to take down the creature before them.

“How strong was its neck” Tenshu asked her, breaking into her impossible thoughts.

“Strong enough that I wouldn’t be able to break it,” she immediately responded. “Otherwise it would be dead already.”

“Strong enough that I couldn’t either?” he asked, getting to his feet and pulling her up with him.

Amadhay nodded. “Even if we both tried to snap his neck at the same time we would probably fail.”

“But not definitely,” he countered. “If we do nothing, it will definitely kill us. So get back up there.”

Amadhay started to argue, but didn’t, finding her mouth strangely shut despite the many things she wanted to say. Instead, she took a deep breath and focused on the pegasus. It appeared to be getting past the pain, because its eyes were set on her, a deep intense hatred shining through.

“I think we should run,” she stated, turning to Tenshu and pushing his shoulders to get him moving. Tenshu kept his eyes on the pegasus behind her.

“Running won’t kill it.”

“And not running will kill us,” she snapped, shoving him. There was a hard whinny from behind them, and Tenshu turned his eyes to her. This time, he frowned and looked at her neck. Automatically, she put her hand to her neck to cover up the scar from Ribbon.

“How many times is that wrapped around your throat?”

“What?” Amadhay asked before her fingers moved down from the scar, to Lizumeizei’s necklace. A pulse came from the pendant, and she looked to Tenshu with surprise. “I wasn’t wearing this,” she said.

“Well, you are now, so how many times is it wrapped around your neck?”

“I don’t—” The pegasus was galloping at them now, shaking the ground with every step. Tenshu’s fingers were on the clasp of the necklace, opening it, and then he was working quickly, unwinding the necklace from around her neck. The chain uncoiled again and again until he was holding a length of the chain and more was still wrapped around her neck.

“Give me a boost,” Amadhay said. The pegasus had stopped its gallop, eyeing them with intelligence. It gave a huff, ready to charge them, but still didn’t close the distance between them.

“How many times is this wrapped around your neck?” Tenshu asked in disbelief, not paying attention to what he was saying.

“Listen to me. I’m going to need your help.” Amadhay looked away from the pegasus, to Tenshu, to see that he was string at her necklace. She had no doubt that it still looked the same, despite the coils of chain he held. Now she understood what Lizumeizei had meant when he said it would come in handy one day.

The pegasus charged, taking advantage of neither of them paying it any attention to close the distance between them. Just by luck, Amadhay was able to push Tenshu to the ground and miss having both of their heads crushed in by its hooves.

“You need to get on its back,” Tenshu commanded, leaving his haze of confusion. He gripped her waist, pulling them both to their feet. Together they wove through the pegasus’ hooves, managing not to be stomped on.

“We both need to get on its back. If we can use this as reins, we can get it back to the bubble and it can do the work for us.”

Tenshu glanced at her for a moment before nodding, kicking the pegasus’ hind leg when it stomped on the chain. Amadhay didn’t even feel a tug and more chain fell from her necklace. The pegasus gave an angry whinny and lifted its hind legs to attempt to stomp them into the dirt. Tenshu pulled the chain up, wrapping it loosely around his waist a few times, before grabbing Amadhay’s arm and tugging her from underneath the horse. They nodded at each other and Amadhay used Tenshu’s cupped hands as a catapult for her foot, jumping up and landing on the pegasus’ rump. Once again, it tried to force her off, but she grabbed hold of its hind, digging her nails into the flesh to keep herself there, and then crawled up the small distance left to its back.

Once there, she gripped the chain and crawled forward until she was at the center of its back. She couldn’t see what Tenshu was doing, but she could tell that he was keeping it distracted from the fact that it had yet to attempt to buck her off.

“Can you get up here on your own?” she called down to Tenshu and received a grunt in response. Carefully, she stood, using the broken wings for stability. The pegasus screamed its pain and tied to shake her off, but she kept a tight hold to the wings and the pegasus didn’t move them, so she stayed where she was. She followed the chain with her eyes, seeing it go under and around the pegasus’ legs several times until it was to Tenshu, in front of the pegasus.

“Are you coming?” she demanded when Tenshu was focusing on its legs.

“New plan,” he called. “We need to get it down.”

“No new plan,” Amadhay countered. “The old plan is a good plan. It works.”

“The old plan was your plan and won’t work. The new plan will.”

Amadhay let out an annoyed noise, tugging on the chain. The pegasus didn’t even seem to notice. “We don’t have enough strength for this!”

“And we have enough to force steer it to its death?” he countered, moving under the pegasus where she couldn’t see him. The pegasus turned in circles, trying to get to him, but to no avail.

“I’m coming up.”

“Oh, now you want to,” Amadhay muttered under her breath, holding tight to the pegasus’ wing. It let out a pained noise when its movement forced her to move the broken bones. She jerked back in surprise when the beast let out an angry whinny when the other end of the chain came up to her. She almost let it fall back down, but caught it at the last moment, hooking it precariously around the edge of the wing to allow the pegasus to lever Tenshu up rather than her. Its pain was obvious, and for a moment, she wished that she were giving it the quick death it deserved instead of this prolonged pain.

Finally, Tenshu was up far enough that she could give him her hand. He allowed her to help him up and then immediately let go of her, moving forward on the pegasus as though he walked on an oversized horse every day. She supposed that he could do it because it was his dreamscape. Either way, still holding the chain, he got a running jump off of the pegasus.

Before Amadhay could yell at him and demand to know the point, he had swung back, on the other side of the pegasus’ neck. “Got it,” he said, holding out the chain to her.

She frowned for a moment before realizing that he had effectively wrapped the pegasus with the chain. And now he was handing the reins to her. She looked from the chain to him and then to the pegasus. “What are you giving it to me for?”

“You’re my weapon,” he said as though it should be obvious. It wasn’t.


“And you have to kill it,” he explained irritatedly. “If I kill it without using my weapon, it will come back.”

She frowned, but took the end of the chain. “Do me a favor,” she ordered, gesturing to the back of her necklace. “Reclasp it. I think that’ll cut this off.”

“What?” Tenshu asked, eyeing her warily.

“Just fucking do it.”

The pegasus was tired. Amadhay wasn’t sure how a figment of Tenshu’s imagination could be tired, but it obviously was. It wasn’t even attempting to get them off anymore, just swaying from side to side, panting. Once the chain fell when Tenshu reclasped her necklace, Amadhay took hold of the reins and pulled. It moved back and forth, seeming to regain some of its fight, and Amadhay looked back to Tenshu.

“You need to help me,” she said, struggling to keep the chain tight against the pegasus’ throat. Without a word, Tenshu moved in behind her, putting his hands on hers and adding his strength behind the pulling of the chain. The pegasus was panicking and Amadhay tried not to care. It ran in circles until Tenshu helped her lead it to the barrier. It hit, hard. Harder than Amadhay had been expecting, and if Tenshu hadn’t been keeping them grounded, she would have flown off. Unfortunately, the pegasus was still alive.

“Again,” Tenshu whispered into Amadhay’s ear. “Once it hits, we can deal with it.”

She nodded and led the pegasus away, making it run around until Tenshu once again helped her lead it back to the barrier. It hit even harder this time, and Tenshu pulled Amadhay and the chains back. When they went falling off of the pegasus’ back, the chains tightened, using their weight as a focus. It was easy, surprisingly easy to Amadhay, for the chains to tighten so much that the pegasus’ legs fell from under it and it slammed headfirst into the barrier again.

That time did it. The pegasus dissolved into the silvery purple that everything on the dreamscape was made of and then disappeared. The chain dropped to the ground and then instantly coiled into a bracelet. Both Amadhay and Tenshu stared at it for a few clicks before Amadhay pushed off of Tenshu and stood up, picking up the bracelet and putting it onto her wrist.

“Now what?” she asked.

Tenshu rolled his eyes, standing up and brushing nothing off of him. “Now we walk. Which way?”

“How would I know?” she asked, eyeing the blank scenery. There was nothing but the semi-transparent barrier and a landscape of sand.

“You’re my guide. I’m sure you’ll figure it out.”

The sarcasm in his tone wasn’t appreciated and she turned to him to tell him just that, but the words caught in her throat when a path appeared behind Tenshu. “How about that way?” she suggested instead, pointing.

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While it had only taken Amadhay a day and a half to become proficient in Hand, it took five more days for her to get a decent grip on the mute brothers’ version of the language.

Unlike with the tutorials, she couldn’t speed through it and get to the meat of it. She couldn’t rewind them if she missed something. They weren’t patient and neither was she, so quite a bit of the four days was the three of them taking breaks so that she could work on the hand signs they’d taught her already that she wasn’t doing correctly. The breaks were also so none of them got hurt, because she had refused a break the first day and it had nearly ended with her smashing a chair on Prillo’s head when he gave her an exasperated look for the fifth time in one clack.

It was during such a break that it happened.

One moment, she had been lounging on her bed, too frustrated to even consider working on Mute Hands—as she liked to call the new language—and the next, she felt her everything being pulled in Tenshu’s direction. She barely had time to look to him before she found herself moving to lay beside the necromancer. The moment their skin touched, she felt drained. There was a throbbing in the back of her head and she could only draw in shallow breaths. She pressed closer until there was no space between them and was gratified to feel that his body was already relaxing.

It was lucky, she mused, that this stage had come while she could still claim travel-sickness. Harpess had implied that they wouldn’t bother her for up to a week while she got used to the equilibrium difference of space. That gave her three days to deal with this before she had to answer to anyone or chance a clandestine meeting with Christein and Benjy. If the books were correct, it was likely this would only take a day or two, which would give her an extra one to be rid of any evidence of whatever happened to Tenshu in the dreamscape.

Turning her attention fully to the man beside her, she noted that he wasn’t much warmer than before, but his limbs weren’t like marble anymore. Somehow just knowing that he needed her closer, she maneuvered his arm until it was around her so that she was pressed against his side. She looked up at his face just in time to see a quick frown before his face smoothed back to the expressionless canvas it had been the past few days. Something in her, a foreign voice, told her not to touch his head, but she dismissed it and brushed her fingertips across his forehead, feeling for a fever.

She hadn’t expected for the world to disappear into a swirl of their auras.

She quickly pulled back, unsure what she should do. While that same voice in the back of her mind was being very vocal about her leaving the necromancer to fight his own battles, another voice, Ribbon’s voice told her to do all she could to help him. The last voice, the only one she really felt was her own, didn’t really agree with either of the voices, but she was curious about the swirling auras. None of the books had really described what she had to do, other than stay close, to help him in this stage.

Either way, she wanted to know what the swirling of their auras was doing, so she was more firm with her touch to his forehead this time, pressing her palm rather than her fingertips, to his forehead. The reaction was instantaneous. Once again, she was floating in a swirl of their auras. In the distance, she could see figures moving, but all of them were blurry and she found that she couldn’t move.

Closer, Ribbon’s voice whispered ad she could feel the voice in every fiber of her being. It made her jerk away, holding her hand to her chest as if she had been burned. It took all of her willpower to sit up and away from Tenshu’s body, especially when he seemed to become paler, less lively, the moment she did. The foreign voice made noises of appreciating her choice and for the first time, she wondered where that voice was coming from. It was new.

Help him, Ribbon’s voice insisted, making Amadhay look back at Tenshu’s body. He looked stiff again, as if her tiny bit of distance completely cut him off from her power. She scooted closer to him, but he didn’t look any better until she touched his hand.

But the moment she touched his hand, she lost all vision. She heard labored breathing, could feel it coming from her own lungs. Tenshu’s voice gave a vicious curse and in response some other creature gave a hungry cry. She felt something hit her head and hard, and in surprise, she dragged her hand away from Tenshu’s, though it felt like she was lifting a wolf feral rather than just her hand.

Once she was no longer touching him, her vision returned. Her breathing came easier. Her head no longer throbbed. Everything was fine with her, but a single glance at Tenshu told her that he was doing worse. There was a strange pallor to his paling skin. She could feel his aura thinning by the way it felt on her mind as it reached for her. He was becoming stiff again and she had a feeling that it she let him, he would go further than deadshock this time. He would die.

Ribbon would want me to save him, she thought before the voice could say anything. The darker one was strangely silent and she associated that with her making up her mind. She was going to save him even if it felt strange. She had decided to save him the moment she picked him up from the fountain. She couldn’t change her mind now that it was something that would affect her.

She took a deep, steadying breath, and slowly leaned back down. Heads together, palms together, Ribbon’s voice instructed. She closed her eyes and, forcing herself to move the last few inches, she pressed her forehead to his and her palms against his. It wasn’t as instantaneous this time, in fact, she had the time to take five breaths before she felt a pull start at her navel and pull her, it felt, inside of Tenshu.

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A sharp knock on her door made Amadhay glance up from her DS. Once returning to her room, she had immediately gone to work. She had finished up checking over Tenshu and had even looked through one of the necromancer physiology books to determine whether she was doing anything wrong. After that, she had painstakingly found and destroyed each and every camera and audio recorder in the room. Knowing that it was the captain watching her had made her feel more comfortable about making it stop. Then she had delved into the hardest job.

For the past few zoots, she had been checking through every search engine that she could find for some hint of her. To her immense relief, the latest was from a year ago from a conspiracy theorist that no one put much stock in, claiming that she wasn’t dead, but was truly the Goddess in disguise and had ascended back to the other realm. She had, with a snicker, decided to send that article to Lizumeizei. The pictures that had been posted of “the Grand Mage’s consort” were shadowy at best and the only one that wasn’t a blurry mess had her looking taller and slimmer than she really was.

 The consensus was, so far, that she was merely a common aelfe that had caught the Grand Mage’s attention. In fact, most of the blogstreams dedicated to gossip were spending more time comparing her, “the mysterious consort,” to Lizumeizei’s past lovers, all of whom had been much more public, none of whom had been given the title of his consort. She wouldn’t deny that that detail made her feel superior. No one had mentioned the names “Hakinato,” “Graceling,” “Amaya,” “Water Herald,” “Amadhay,” or “Red Robin” so she was feeling pretty secure.

Amadhay’s eyes flickered to Tenshu when the knock came again. He hadn’t changed in the past few zoots, still pale, barely breathing, and catatonic. She counted that as a success. If he were going to crash, she knew he would have done it by now. The book she had opened at the foot of the bed said so. She flicked her fingers at the bed sheet so that it was up under his neck, leaving the bed appearing made to another’s eyes. She kept him invisible to all but herself and looked to the door, squinting as she used the through-vision spell to see who was knocking.

It was Lizumeizei’s pet mutes. Rolling her eyes, she ended the spell and jumped off of the bed. “Yes?” she called, knowing that neither could answer her. There was a triple rap on her door. “Who is it?” she asked, smirking as she leaned against the door. The triple rap that answered her made her give a soft puff of an exhalation for a laugh before opening it.

Prillo gave her a knowing look before walking in.

“I don’t remember inviting you in,” she muttered under her breath as Faeo followed him in. Once both were in, she closed the door behind them and turned to see the two of them checking the room. Instead of telling them that she’d already done a search of her own between leaving the room and coming back, she allowed it, watching as they moved in sync, checking everywhere. She had been ready to stop them from checking the bed, but to her surprise, they left the bed alone completely, not even checking underneath it. Likewise, though both glanced at the chest, neither opened it to check inside.

When both were satisfied that no one had sneaked in or left new cameras, Prillo held out a small data chip, placing it on Amadhay’s upturned palm when she held her hand out to him.

“What is it?” she asked, eyeing the nondescript chip. There was no labeling on it other than the Base Inventions logo. When she received no answer, she looked to the men before mentally smacking her own forehead. They were mute. She needed to figure out a system to communicate with them.

Neither gave any attempt to answer her question, instead choosing to stare at her, so she sighed. Yes or no questions it is then. “Is this yours or did you find it?” she asked, before restating her question once again. “I mean, sorry. Is this something you saved to the chip?”

Faeo shook his head.

“So this is just something random that you found and thought I should look at?” she asked, making a face. She had expected Lizumeizei to send intelligent bodyguards, not just muscle. He knew she didn’t do well with stupidity.

Prillo shook his head. He gestured at the chip, and then at Amahay’s wrist DS. He didn’t need words for Amadhay to know he was telling her to check the chip. Amadhay shook her head. “I’m not putting some random chip that you found in my DS. That’s asking for a virus.”

Both men gave her an exasperated look. Faeo made a few gestures that meant nothing to her until it was obvious that she was understanding nothing he was trying to convey before dropping his hands in consternation.

“Are you a hundred percent certain that this chip isn’t going to shut down my DS or plant a tracking bug or something?” she asked, her curiosity getting the best of her as she played with the chip, turning it over again and again in her fingers.

Both men nodded ecstatically. So ecstatically that she eyed them mistrustfully for a few clicks before deciding that it really didn’t matter. Her wrist DS only had her personal information anyway. After she had lost her old DS sometime during the Palnoki incident, Nolando and Anne had foisted a wrist DS and a handheld DS on her, claiming that it was to be sure that she had no excuse not to talk to them on a regular basis. Her handheld DS held all of her sensitive information, like her mission data and all of her contacts. The most anyone would get from her wrist DS was that she knew Benjy, Christein, the Tierdom king and queen, Essie, and Lizumeizei. She wasn’t too worried.

Inserting the chip into her DS, she held a bated breath as she waited for the screen to show some virus or a hacker’s emblem. What she saw instead made her smile. The blueprints of the ship, both the official ones and the ones she assumed to be the developers copy were superimposed over each other, showing her at least three areas that weren’t supposed to be there. There was also data on each and every person on the ship, which she mentally made note to read over that night. All of the supplies were listed, as well as their intended traveling plans, such as where they were planning to stop and hesitant dates for each. Most importantly, this seemed to still be a part of the main system, granting her access to information as it was entered. She could see the last addition to a file was under “Grand Mage’s Consort.”

She quickly clicked on it, walking around the room in an even eight figure as she read over the concise information. Lady Consort: Has brought along two bodyguards, which could mean a chance of danger. Aelfen female of the name Amadhay. Fifteen years old and small by aelfe standards. Unidentified familial relations. Seemingly ignorant of noble duties, so possibly not originally of noble birth, however the choice not to give a family name implies importance. Similar in looks to Water Herald, possibly a Ha. Unidentified gift, and unusual face markings, so unidentified animal. Claims to have joined for refuge from press, however, as she had until now been unknown as the Lady Consort, the claim is unfounded. Possibly in connection to the Ha lordling, but the assumption is currently unproven. Magical ability and hyperawareness of being watched. Covered all cameras in her private rooms and has silenced all audio.

“Someone is seeing too much,” she muttered to herself before looking at the two humans once again. “Thank you,” she said earnestly, smiling at the men who nodded in response. “Now I feel somewhat bad about telling Kit Rain that you want to bunk with the crew.”

Prillo shrugged, while Faeo gave a suspiciously pointed look to her bed.

“Okay, next order of business. How do I talk to you two?” At their expectant looks, Amadhay continued. “You don’t have DS’s, so we can’t talk via those messages. Paper and pen is incredibly dangerous. I don’t know any spells to give you voices. How do you talk to Lizumeizei?”

Both of them gave her blank looks. She was beginning to feel like that was always going to be their answer when she didn’t ask a question they would be able to answer without frustrating her when she didn’t understand them.

“Did Lizu make some special way for you to talk to him?”

Prillo shook his head, but Faeo nodded.

“How can he have not, but also have?” she asked, before remembering that she had to use yes or no questions. “Did you talk to him? I mean verbally?”

Both shook their heads.

“Okay, but you did talk to him in some way?”

Both nodded.

“Was his way a way that I could copy?”

Both nodded.

For a moment, she considered using her DS for them to write out responses, but remembered how long it had taken Prillo to write down seven words and decided that this difficult communication was better than suffering through them slowly writing responses to her.

“Is there any writing involved?” she asked distastefully.

Both shook their heads before once again, one attempted making gestures with his hands.

That was when it hit her. They talked with their hands. She took a long, irritated, breath before focusing on Faeo, whose eyes told her he knew she’d finally caught on. “You taught him Hand language?”

When Prillo nodded and Faeo shook his head, she understood that opposite answers meant ‘somewhat.’ She rubbed her temples.

“How did you somewhat teach him Hand? Did he already know it?”

Once again, they both gave different answers. Trying to keep herself from getting too irritated, she glared out of the window and then immediately looked back to them. She still wasn’t ready to acknowledge that they were flying thousands of miles in the sky, past the sky, into space. Every time she thought about it, her stomach started to turn in somersaults. She was just lucky that the gravity center and air filters kept the ship feeling as though they were still on land, otherwise she would have lost everything she’d eaten so far. As it was, it was enough to keep her from wanting to eat anything and so she hadn’t gone to dinner when Harpess had come for her. She wasn’t sure how long she could sequester herself within her room, but had a feeling that the air-sick excuse would wear off long before she was ready to face Benjy and Christein.

“So he knew some hand language and you taught him more?”

Both hesitantly nodded and Amadhay had a feeling she knew what the problem was. These two were prized for their inability to communicate with anyone except their chosen few. If that were so, they couldn’t possibly have been using normal Hand language. While she didn’t know it, because none of her missions had ever involved needing to know it considering her targets tended to be wealthy and could afford the Mental Speech Implant if they were in fact mute, she doubted it was all that difficult to find a book on Hand language and decipher what they were saying. In fact, she knew the blogstream had to have at least ten different people teaching it.

“He knew official Hand and you taught him a new, personalized Hand language, right?”

This time their nod was ecstatic, as if the two were just as annoyed by her repetitious questioning as she was.

“Good,” she said, already scrolling through her DS for the datastream and searching for easy Hand tutorials. “I’ll learn Hand tonight and you can teach me yours tomorrow.”

She ignored the doubtful looks they gave her. They didn’t understand that she knew memory sponge spells, that with her Gift she could get through any tutorial in a few clacks flat, so long as she found a book version. She’d learn much more complex things in the same amount of time, and that was before learning the memory sponge spells. Learning was easy for her. The hard part was going to be actually using the hand gestures. Ribbon had always told her that her understanding of the spells and words were flawless, but her incantation cues were sloppy. With Hand, she was depending entirely on her hands to get her point across, so she couldn’t chance being sloppy and saying something completely different from what she meant.

Removing the chip from her DS once she found a few appropriate tutorials, she slipped the chip into a small jewelry box, in the false bottom. She completely ignored the humans presence as she began to run through the elementary bits, like learning the alphabet, larger numbers, easy phrases and such. When she was partially through learning how to say common words like races and places, she glanced up at the sound of her door closing, and saw that the two had left. She checked on Tenshu to see no change and then delved right back into learning the language.

It wasn’t long after that, or at least it seemed like a short time to Amadhay, that there was another knock on her door. She sighed and flicked at the door to unlock it. “Come in,” she called, expecting the two men to have come back in some misguided need to protect her from absolutely nothing.

It wasn’t them, however. It was Harpess.

Seeing the woman standing in her doorway, eyeing her a bit too closely for Amadhay’s liking, the girl closed the tutorial and smiled at the woman. “Did you want something?” she asked.

Harpess was silent for a moment, looking over Amadhay’s room as if she were looking for something. Amadhay made sure not to give a relieved breath when the woman looked right over the invisible shape of Tenshu. Her eyes snagged on the pictures on the mirror, but other than that, it could have been a cursory glance had Amadhay not known that the woman was looking for something. She just didn’t know what yet.

Harpess took a step into the room and that was when Amadhay noticed that she was holding a medium sized book. She couldn’t read the cover, given that Harpess’ arm was covering it, but Amadhay approached her nonetheless, holding her hand out for the book. There would have been no other reason for the woman to bring it than to give it to her.

Harpess gave Amadhay a short nod, handing her the book and Amadhay was able to recognize it as one of a series she’d skimmed through back when she had been tutored by a Ha educator. It was about the duties of a noble in different situations. The Duties and Customs of Nobility Aboard Interplanetary Vessels was exactly what she needed.

“Thank you,” Amadhay said earnestly. “I’m incredibly embarrassed that I came here without knowing this kind of stuff.” She smiled at Harpess, who gave her a smile in turn.

“The Qwuill sent it, along with a few more specific ones just in case you weren’t aware of customs,” the human explained.

Amadhay nodded. That sounded like something Lizumeizei would do, especially since he was worried about her making him look bad. She smirked slightly. “There’s a book about appropriately dressing, isn’t there?”

Harpess gave a slight chuckle. “That was the book he told me to give to you no matter what,” she said with an eye roll. “I can’t imagine why.”

Amadhay tried to keep a straight face. She had, for a moment, thought the woman was being sarcastic in the most deadpan way possible, but then it dawned on her that the human honestly thought this was how she dressed on a regular basis. She would be surprised soon enough.

When she laughed, Harpess stared at her in confusion, but didn’t say anything until after Amadhay shook her head and said, “You should probably give me that book as soon as possible so that I don’t offend anyone.”

“Of course. I can have all of them brought to you tonight. I simply thought you might not want to be bothered with work.” She glanced at the books piled on the windowsill. “But I could be wrong.”

Amadhay plastered on a smile. “I love learning new things. And if it’ll help out my Qwuill, then I’m ready to do all the work necessary.”

Harpess gave her a discerning look before shaking her head. “You’ll have plenty of time. You don’t have to rush, unless you’re an incredibly slow reader. We won’t be reaching any other planets for a week if everything is optimal, and I’m sure all that you need to know for that stop is in that book.” She tapped the book she had brought with the tip of her pointer finger.

Amadhay nodded. “I’m sure.” Her interest was piqued. “What’s in the other books then?”

“Culture of the known planets we will be approaching, specifics so you, as our envoy, won’t insult them.”

Amadhay nodded. “Like what?” she asked.

Harpess thought for a moment. “Well, on Phellimore, the first planet we’ll pause on to refuel and restock, the people are basically all cat-kins and refuse to deal with anyone without a feline aura. We wouldn’t have been able to get anything from them if not for our previous agreement with them.”

Amadhay thought that over for a moment. Feline aura? Would I have that? She wondered before she nodded to Harpess. “So what will I do there?”

“Very little,” Harpess answered. “Like I said, they are only willing to deal with us due to a previous agreement. We simply need you as an ambassador to sign the papers to get us through and to talk to any Resorians who need an ambassador. I’m not aware of any Resorians there, since their air isn’t compatible to ours.”

“So I just stand there and look pretty, sign a few papers, and otherwise keep my mouth shut?”

“Exactly. See? It’s not that hard.”

Amadhay snorted in a very unladylike manner, gaining an honest smile from Harpess. She had a feeling that she was going to have to go out of her way to make all of the humans understand that she wasn’t someone they had to be on their best behavior around. Tensions would run high otherwise.

“Have you been outside of Resor before?” Harpess asked after a moment of silence.

“No,” Amadhay responded, glancing to the window and instantly regretting it. There was a swirl of meteors and the remains of a few ships in the not too far distance. She clenched her fists and swallowed to keep herself from letting loose the food from earlier.

“Ever been out of Roadesia?” Harpess asked, apparently oblivious to Amadhay’s problem.

“I’ve gone Over the Water a few times.”

“Have you ever flown before?”

The mention of flying was the last thing Amadhay needed. Just hearing the word ‘flying’ usually made her nauseous. Considering she’d already been holding down her lunch, she lost the battle. She gave a sharp nod and quickly scanned the room for something to puke into. She couldn’t keep it down this time. Just as she spotted a wastebasket near the door, Harpess held out a strange bag. Holding her hand over her mouth, Amadhay looked at her questioningly.

“You look like you’re about to be sick. Do it in this bag instead of the basket so the smell doesn’t spread,” she responded calmly.

Amadhay didn’t even have the chance to respond before she felt the bile rising into her throat. She grabbed the bag and turned her back to the woman, emptying her stomach. Harpess stood behind her and didn’t say anything. Amadhay was glad that the woman hadn’t felt the need to try to comfort her by rubbing her back or pulling her hair back. She hated it when people touched her when she was sick, especially this type of sick.

Once she was done, she tried to determine what to do with the bag. When she turned back, Harpess had a small plastic bag open to her. “Close the seal at the top,” she said, miming pressing the top of the bag together with two of her fingers pressed together. Amadhay slid her fingers across the top, sealing the bag and looked expectantly to Harpess. “Please put that in here. We’re trying to contain all of that since we won’t have a waste station for a hundred more miles.”

Amadhay nodded, refusing to meet the woman’s eyes. This time, Harpess did touch her, though it was only a quick pat of her shoulder. “It’s nothing to be ashamed of. Most do it on their first time out. Space travel is different from flying in Resor’s air.”

Again, Amadhay nodded and kept her eyes firmly focused on the wall.

Harpess sounded amused. “You lasted longer than anyone expected. You must travel regularly.”

“I don’t like flying,” was all Amadhay could think to say.

Next Chapter

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 Amadhay wasn’t sure how she felt as she led a pair of humans after her, to the oversized room she had been given as her quarters. As the Lady Consort she was allowed first boarding, which turned out to be a blessing in disguise. It was a media circus around the ship, with flashing and recording DS’s everywhere. Everyone wanted to see the voyagers who would be going on this trip, though she had no doubt that a large percentage of the crowd was due to the leaked news that the Grand Mage’s consort would be joining the trip.

She planned on finding out who leaked that as soon as she was settled.

Either way, getting onboard the vessel a whole zoot before the crew would be able to had its other pluses. Besides being able to hide from the gossip hungry tabloids and news crews, she was also able to scope out the ship a bit. Or at least she would be able to once the helpful muscles set all of her luggage in her rooms. Not only were the two men holding three bags each, they held a long chest between the two of them.

They didn’t know that they were carrying an injured necromancer in it. While she hadn’t officially asked if she would be able to bring the man along with her, she assumed that they weren’t going to say no to her. She was, after all, an incredibly important person, according to the organizer, who had gone out of his way to meet her. She was to get the best room, which had previously been meant to home the other unwelcome guests, Christein and Benjy. She would be given the best of the food. There would be a cleaning service, free of charge. And apparently, she had first dibs on the escape chutes should anything go wrong.

So she didn’t see the point of bothering them with worries about Tenshu. She’d take care of him, he’d stay in her rooms, and he’d eat her food. No harm done, right?

Honestly, she just doubted that their interest in complying with all of her needs would extend to the man who, as far as anyone unaware about necromantic healing could tell, looked to be dead. If they had known about Tenshu, she feared that she’d then have to sneak him on and they’d be wary about it and it would all just be very complicated. She didn’t want complicated. She wanted easy and quiet. Sneaking Tenshu in without any questions about why the Grand Mage’s consort was bringing along another male, what she wanted with a dead necromancer, who she was, and who he was, would hopefully keep things quiet enough that she could get far enough into space. That way, by the time Christein or Benjy realized she was there, it would be too late to eject her right back.

For now, though, her worry wasn’t on her cousin or friend. All of her attention was focused on learning her way around the ship. So far, she knew her way to her room, the cafeteria, the medical bay, and the pool. She hadn’t asked about the engine room, because she didn’t want them nervous about her, but as soon as she ditched the muscle twins, she was going to check it out. She still had to find the green rooms, the food bay, the kitchens (which, for some reason weren’t connected to the cafeteria, which made her uneasy about the food), the dormitory for the crew, and most importantly, the cargo hold. She wasn’t going to go into space blind about her surroundings.

The doors to her room slid open after scanning her iris, her magically altered blue ones, and she led the men to her bed. “Set that down on the bed,” she ordered them when they looked ready to drop the chest right there in the middle of the floor. “And be gentle with it.”

 She rolled her eyes at the quick look between the two, one that she was used to being the source of from her time as a precocious lady in the Hakinato homestead and her short tenure in the Tierdom kingdom. She knew she was a terror for servants, but it kept them on their toes. And it made them keep their distance from her whenever possible.

However, the two did as she ordered without a single grumble, lifting the chest up high and setting it gently down before dumping her other bags on the bed as well. Amadhay had to admire the bed for a moment. It was large enough to fit her, Christein, Benjy, Tenshu, Atlas, Ribbon, Rea, and Kimiko. She couldn’t help but wonder why anyone would need a bed that size.

She smiled at the men. “That’s all I needed, thank you.”

They didn’t leave.

“You can leave?”

They shook their heads and the one closest to her handed her a slip of paper. On it, read:

Dearest Consort,

These two men were a gift from the Grand Mage. He wanted to be sure that you were safe. He told me to be sure that you know they are mute, but very observant. I tried to convince him that you needed no extra protection here, but he was quite persistent. Please tell me if you need extra rooms for them or if they will be making their quarters within your own.

Kit Rain

After reading the letter, Amadhay closed her eyes and took eleven deep breaths before reopening them and focusing on the men. “I don’t need protection.”

The further one shrugged. They both held up their wrists, to show that they had been marked by Lizumeizei as her guardians. Narrowing her eyes, Amadhay held out her hand for the closer one to lay his hand on hers so that she could examine the mark closer. His hand was easily the size of her face, which she couldn’t help but to think was dangerous. Hammy hands meant strength, and strength was one way she was easily bested, considering she was so small. These men could pick her up, throw her over their shoulders, and she would be helpless. Or as helpless as she ever got.

Pushing those thoughts away, she traced the insignia of Lizumeizei’s Qwuill Master mark, a single crane with the mane of a lion. The purple and red of the runes burned on top of the mark told Amadhay that she had no hopes of breaking or changing the mark. Until Lizumeizei was satisfied, or they were dead, she had bodyguards. Pursing her lips, Amadhay pulled out her DS. She’d had no plans of using it for the next few days, knowing that her use could be tracked to the ship, which would lead to her being found out, but she needed to talk to Lizumeizei.

He answered on the first ring.

“I’m not taking them back,” he said, his hologram appearing in front of her. He was leaning against something she couldn’t see, but he was dressed quite impressively in the silver and purple of the Grand Mage, telling her that he was going somewhere for a public appearance.

Lizumeizei Qwuilleran,” she hissed, turning her back on the men because their knowing looks were irritating her. “I neither want nor need them. You and I both know that I can take care of myself.”

“The last time you went on your own into completely new territory, you were taken advantage of, beaten, and sent back home with a bow around your neck,” he said, reminding her of Madra.

“I’m not here on my own,” she whispered, wishing that she had taken the time to check the room for bugs when she’d been given the tour earlier. “Benjy and Christein are here. And I have a bit of unexpected back up.”

“Their presence only reassures me that I did the right thing.” His image disappeared for a moment, as if they had lost contact, and then reappeared. “And what do you mean unexpected backup?”

One of the oversized men touched her shoulder and shook his head. Amadhay shrugged him off, not understanding what he wanted. “Doesn’t matter. The problem is you sicking your pet muscles on me.”

“I didn’t sick anything on you. I merely gave you protection. You will thank me later.”

“Will I?” she asked, turning away from the men who were trying to get her attention. “Because I think them being around me makes it difficult for me to,” she paused, watching the men in the mirror as they gestured as subtly as they could while still gaining her attention. They kept looking and gesturing to the same three places: the mirror, the reinforced window, and the main light hanging above her. Perfect places to put bugs, she realized. “Makes it difficult for me to get alone time, which is why I’m here, remember? Alone time?”

Lizumeizei didn’t even seem fazed by her change. “I remember. But you can get alone time and be safe. People are going to want to get to you to get to me. I’m not there and I want you safe.”

She pouted, playing the part of spoiled lady as well as she ever had. “Lizu,” she whined, trying her hardest not to look directly into what she assumed were cameras. The men were searching the adjoining bathroom and closet, each subtly holding up one finger to tell her that she was bugged everywhere. And she had nearly blown her own cover.

“You can ‘Lizu’ me all you want. They’re synced to you right now, and will be, either until I unsync them, or they die. So unless you plan on killing them, suck it up.”

She shook her head. “Fine, I’ll keep them. But they have to make themselves useful. Work with the crew when they need a hand. Give me time on my own to do what I want with worrying it’s going directly to you.”

“As long as you’re safe, I’m sure they’ll find ways to entertain themselves.” Through the DS, she could hear someone calling for the Grand Mage. Giving her a knowing smile, Lizumeizei blew her a kiss. “I’ll hear from you tomorrow?”

“Of course,” Amadhay replied, trying for a besotted tone, but given that she still wasn’t completely used to her new voice, it just sounded seductive. The scratchy voice that accompanied the scar from her fight with Ribbon made it nearly impossible for her to sound sweet anymore. “I love you, Lizumeizei,” she added, blowing him a kiss back.

He paused for a moment before giving her a full smile. “I love you too.”

Once they both hung up, Amadhay took the moment to determine what she was going to do with the bugs. She could easily take them down. That would be no problem for her, especially now that she knew where they were. But that would not only alert whoever was trying to watch her that she knew, but it wouldn’t tell her who was watching her, or why. On the other hand, she could hardly leave the cameras up. Doing that would make her room unsafe for her. She needed this area to plot her next move, to talk to Lizumeizei, to…

To work on Tenshu. She stared at the chest. She needed to get Tenshu out of there, and she couldn’t do that so long as she was being watched by some unknown entity. She barely wanted to do it while being watched by Lizumeizei’s goons. So, she needed to obscure the vision of the cameras without making it obvious that was what she was doing. Once she did that, she had a feeling that the men would leave her alone.

She looked pointedly at the men, who were still just standing there, watching her. “Since I’m stuck with you two, you might as well make yourselves useful and help me unpack. Just the bags, okay?”

Their questioning looks made it obvious that they didn’t understand why she wasn’t dealing with the cameras, so she gave them a slight shake of her head before opening the smallest of the bags. It contained all of her undergarments. It dawned on her, after she began packing away clothes, that she really should have looked through the bags before just bringing them along. Anything could be in them, a curse, a phantom, sensitive information, and the first time she was going to open it was while she was being watched.

Brilliant, she thought, emptying the last of her underwear into one of the drawers of the dresser beside the window. Underneath the underwear was a bundle that she didn’t recognize, and even though she was worried about a curse, her curiosity got the better of her, convincing her to open it. Inside, were pictures, pictures that she hadn’t known existed. She scanned through them, seeing the story of her time with the Palnoki unfold in a series of pictures.

It hurt.

The worst was when she looked at the last picture, one with her and Ribbon. Ribbon looked beautiful, her mouth open in a wide smile and her eyes squinting as she laughed. She was wearing a green dress that matched her eyes and her hair was soaking wet. She was leaning over Amadhay, hugging the girl to her chest and soaking the otherwise dry girl, who was also laughing. Amadhay had her arms around Ribbon’s waist, her eyes open and staring adoringly at Ribbon. It was a picture taken the day before everything had fallen apart, before they had gone to the Mud Castle. She and Ribbon had been walking along the beach when a sudden rainstorm had caught them unawares. She had rushed inside, but Ribbon hadn’t been nearly as fast and had been soaked by rain when she made it into the Sand Castle.

“I see how you are, Red Bird. Just leave me out there.” Ribbon had come in, dripping wet with her normally thick curls were plastered to her skull, rather than in a halo around her head.

“Not my fault you’re slow,” she’d said, laughing at Ribbon’s state. She had, though, reached out and used a spell to instantly dry the dress.

“I’ll show you slow,” Ribbon had mock-growled and launched herself at Amadhay, who could have easily avoided her. Instead, she squealed and stayed in place, letting Ribbon grab at her. “Who’s slow now, huh?” Ribbon exclaimed, laughing as she hugged Amadhay to her chest, her still wet skin chilling Amadhay’s and wetting both of their clothes. She rubbed her head against Amadhay’s and that was when she squawked indignantly.

“Hey! You know what my hair does when it gets wet!” she complained, but she was laughing too hard to be taken seriously.

She wasn’t sure how long she stood there, staring at the picture when one of the men nudged her. When she looked up at him, she was aware that her eyes were wet. She quickly brushed the moisture away from her face and looked to him questioningly. He showed her the contents of one of the bags. It was all weapons.

Glancing back at the mirror, the closest camera, Amadhay forced a shrug. “Just put it under the bed. I’ll sort it out later.”

She started to set the pictures down, but then looked at the mirror again and grinned to herself. Decorating could easily take care of the cameras, and it wouldn’t be obvious so long as she did it right.

Punni,” she said the sticking spell aloud, touching the mirror. For a moment, she remembered Ribbon using the spell to stick her to the wall, back when she was her guard, before they’d become friends, before they…

She shook away the thoughts, wishing that she hadn’t started to think about Ribbon. Once she started, she had a hard time stopping. Crawling onto the desk, she stood on it and began pressing pictures to the glass, starting at the top of the mirror. Her overwhelming vanity wouldn’t allow her to completely cover the mirror, but she didn’t need to. The camera, she knew because she’d been able to see a strange reflection of glass, was in the center of the wooden frame, right at the top, which was where she put the picture of her and Ribbon.

Satisfied, she hopped down from the table and turned back to the bed. She was surprised to see that most of the bags were empty. The closet was partially open, to let her see that the men had neatly hung and folded her clothes. The same hanging that had hung above her bed at Palnoki was now hanging off of the ceiling light, obscuring the camera, and the canopy that hung off of it had been finagled into a sort of swing for her. And though the men didn’t know it, she was actually quite happy to have it up like that because it brought the comfort of old surroundings without the memories of her last few weeks with the Palnoki, when she had to imagine that overhanging to fall asleep.

Seeing that, she had no doubt that the men had taken care of the cameras in the closet and bathroom. That left one camera, the one in the window. She looked through the remaining bags on her bed. One was full of miscellaneous junk, things that she would have to go through at a later time. The other one was full of books she had been reading, and not just the magic books. The ones on succubi, vampires, necromancers, and blood witches were there as well, as if her touching them had tainted the books. There were even two that she didn’t recognize in the bunch, but she didn’t think too hard about them. They were probably just ones Ribbon had tossed into her room that she had never really looked at.

But the books could work.

There were just enough of them that, if she were to stack them on the windowsill, they would cover up the camera, which had been fixed in the center of the window, made to look like a star. It was only noticeable now, honestly, because the view from her window was that of a sea of people trying to catch a glimpse of the crew as they filed in. Seeing that, Amadhay tapped her wrist DS to see that she had lost most of a zoot, looking at the pictures and “decorating.” She shoved the last of the books onto the windowpane and rushed to the door.

And then she paused, looking back at the chest. She needed to get Tenshu out of it, but she also needed to scope out the rest of the ship before everyone was on it and would notice her wandering around. She looked to her two bodyguards, who appeared ready to follow her, and knew that she had to get rid of them before dealing with Tenshu. And despite what she wanted to do, she needed to deal with Tenshu now, because in his state, being unmonitored, in a chest, despite the spells she had dumped in there to keep him stable, wasn’t going to help his condition.

So she made the only decision she really could. She allocated the work.

Unsure whether there were also sound bugs hidden around the room, Amadhay typed out orders on her wrist DS and lifted them into a small hologram screen. Both men moved forward to read her instructions. It took them nearly five clacks to read seven sentences, which told her this wouldn’t be a good way to continue talking to them.

I need the two of you to scope out the ship. I need to know where everything is. If you can find and steal a map of the ship, that would help, otherwise, you need to create one. I’ll stay here. With the cameras down, I’m safe. Lizumeizei said you were synced to my safety, yes? Well knowing the schematics and possible hiding places all over this ship will increase my safety.

The larger one, who she had begun to mentally refer to as Prillo (in reference to the strongest Watcher that guarded The Lake), brushed his hand over the message to erase it. Painstakingly, as if he had only barely learned how to write, he took three clacks to write a response to her in large letters.

Both of us don’t have to go.

She pursed her lips, irritated that he was making this difficult on her. Before she could respond, however, the smaller one, who she was mentally calling Faeo (in reference to the most vigilant of the Watchers guarding The Lake), touched “Prillo” on his arm and shook his head. He nodded to Amadhay before both men left the room, closing the door behind them with a solid thump.

She took a moment to ponder about that, but finally decided to push it to the back of her mind and she rushed to the chest. When she unlatched the physical latches on the chest, the magical locks reared their defensive attacks toward her until she quickly and easily disarmed them and unlocked the invisible lock as well. When she opened the chest, the scent of healing magic hit her hard. Tenshu still didn’t look any better, but from the scent of the magic, how heavy it was, she could tell that something was healing.

Clicking her tongue softly, she gave the only necessary invocation for the levitation spell she’d mastered a month ago. With her right hand, she leveled her focus on the necromancer and he began to float up in the chest. Gently, she lifted Tenshu from the chest and set him down in the center of the bed before waving her left hand and using the same spell to toss the chest off of her bed. Before it could clatter to the ground, she held her hand steady and lowered it, gently, below the window, where it would take the least amount of space and wouldn’t impede her movement around the room.

Now that Tenshu was settled in the bed, Amadhay glanced nervously to the door. She didn’t want anyone to walk in on her and see him. That could certainly prove to be disastrous. So, with a silent incantation, she locked the door to give herself a bit of privacy. She would need to put wards on the door sooner rather than later to keep out unwanted visitors, but that could wait until she had worked on Tenshu a little bit.

Crawling onto the bed, Amadhay was careful not to jolt Tenshu too much. While what she’d read didn’t say movement had much of an adverse affect on a necromancer in this stage of dead shock, she figured that it was probably safe to assume that someone in a rigid full-body state would not be helped by being moved around all the time. She didn’t think that moving him would be kind on his body, and she’d once read somewhere that a necromancer in dead shock had brittle bones, which was a stark change from normal, when their bones were thicker than an aelfe’s.

She felt his skin and was pleasantly surprised to find that it was no colder than when she had last touched him. It seemed that he might come out of this relatively soon. She hoped he would. Most of the books said it took close to a week or two for dead shock to fully end. Nowhere did it say how long this stage was. After this first stage, of catatonic stiffness, he would go into a dreamscape in the Astral Realm. His body would relax as he went through it, but what she was worried about was the fact that during that time, she couldn’t leave his side. He needed her energy to fight off whatever would attack him in there, and whatever attacked him was also attacking her. If she emerged from that stage, looking worse for wear, it would be difficult to explain why she was harmed when she hadn’t left her room.

But once they got through that stage, everything else would be simple. He would sleep calmly for a while, then wake up, though he would be delusional until he hit stage five. Stage four was when she would be able to heal any of the physical injuries that she hadn’t already been able to for whatever reason. At stage five, he would begin to calm down, and the delusions would die away. At stage six rational thought came back, but he would think that he was still in the situation that put him into deadshock. After that, the panic would go away, and then he would be fully healed.

She just had to get him that far.

She took a moment to remember the particulars of the spell Rea had taught her to check a body’s stats. There were no words to be spoken aloud, only a chant to mentally repeat as she softly blew on his body. So, taking a deep breath, she began the chant. Ore oru ira. Ore oru ira. Ore oru ira. She began to blow starting at his head and went down first his left arm, back up to go down his right arm, and then she went down his torso. As she lost air, she sped up, because the spell had to be done in one breath or it didn’t work. She made it down his right leg before she couldn’t blow any more air out.

So she tried again. It took her five attempts to finally finish the spell, and once she did, she sat back on her heels and looked over his body. There were red and black smudges over him, showing where he had been hurt. His entire head was a black smudge, telling her that he had received a pretty hard blow to the head, which she had already known, but it was the red leaking into it that worried her. It was very small, but there was still apparently a bit of bleeding. She had no doubt that deadshock would contain it for now, but that was going to be the first thing she fixed once stage three came around.

Other than his head, he had black littering most of his body, but mostly concentrated around his throat. There was a light red all over him, which she hoped were scratches and not internal bleeding. There was only one incredibly red spot, which she thought might be on his back, not that she could tell, considering the magic only showed her the basic spot where the injury was. She needed to see the skin for herself, she realized. The spell was good for seeing what was under his skin, like the broken arm, sprained wrist, and multiple cracks in his bones on his torso and hips, but topical injuries were ones that she had to see for herself, especially if there was an open, bleeding wound somewhere.

Reaching under her dress to the holsters she wore, she fingered the distinctive handles of four of her knives before finding the sharpest one. After carefully removing it from the sheath strapped to her skin so as not to cut her thigh, she leaned over Tenshu again, this time pulling at his black shirt. She put her knife to the seams and neatly cut first his shirt open, taking the top off of his body while leaving the back of it under him. She then moved down to his pants. Pausing only to touch the tip of the knife to be sure that it would be sharp enough to cut through the thicker material, she nodded when it easily cut her finger. Doing the same as she had with his shirt, she set the front of his black pants beside the black shirt. She set her knife down and quickly removed his black boots and socks, leaving him in only his black underwear.

When she looked over his body, she winced. Tenshu’s body was a myriad of bruises, ranging from a pale yellow, to a dark purple, almost black. He had scratches all over, which made her feel a little better because it meant that the red on the scan wasn’t internal bleeding. Clicking her tongue to use the levitation spell, she lifted him up only enough for her to crawl under him and, snapping her fingers, she made a small orb of purple light to look at his other side. His back was similar to his front, with scratches and bruises, but with one major difference. There was a piece of the fountain sticking out of his back.

It was enough to the side that she didn’t worry that it had severed any of his spine and didn’t seem deep enough to have damaged any organs, but it was slowly bleeding around the chunk of marble. Realizing that she needed both of her hands, she closed her right hand around the orb to extinguish it and slowly rotated her left hand to turn Tenshu onto his side. She gently laid him back down on the bed before getting a better look at the wound with natural light. It wasn’t a horrible wound, but given that the rock had been inside of him for zoots, she had a bad feeling that it was probably going to be infected soon. Either way, she needed to remove it.

There was a knock at the door. “Lady Consort?” A woman asked.

She flinched. Between her automatic reaction to the title and her alarm at being interrupted in the middle of dealing with Tenshu, she was uncomfortable and wanted the woman gone.  “I’m busy!” she called.

“Of course,” the same voice came again. “We only meant to introduce you to the other passengers of prestige and have you wave off.”

“We’re going to be in space for a while. I have no doubt that I’ll meet them by the end of this week,” she stated, wrapping her hands around the chunk of the fountain.

“Of course. It’s just that, as the highest ranking—”

“Give my duties to the next highest ranking,” she said, tugging it out of his back. Tenshu didn’t make a sound, which she expected, but she knew it had to have been painful.

“That’s not how—”

“It’s how it works now. I’m sure he’ll do it better anyway.” She didn’t even know what the duties were. She hadn’t even known that there were duties. She realized that she should have talked to Lizumeizei about that before jumping in here.

A more familiar voice, that of Rain Kit spoke next. “Lady Consort, it is tradition for the highest ranking person on the ship to be the final wave off as we set off. I only agreed for your presence on this trip because the Grand Mage assured us that you would be willing to do any public appearances, and we were in desperate need of someone of rank. While we are more than willing to hand off your other duties to the next highest, given that he has the experience in administration, it is your duty to do this, as he is under strict orders not to make any public appearances. I don’t mean to be so forceful, but you need to come out here and do just that.”

While Rain spoke, Amadhay had bandaged up Tenshu’s wound, not that it was bleeding much more than before.  She was listening closely, filing away everything the man said for future reference. It was a given that being kept a secret made Christein a pretty cruddy ranking member of nobility to be their face. But why didn’t they already have one? She remembered a little bit of information regarding this from her long ago discontinued schooling on nobility and court importance in government. All exploration teams were supposed to have someone of rank with them, usually a Major or Colonel from the RA or a noble who was funding it.

So why didn’t this one have any? Was it because it was a colonization mission and that those on it weren’t expected back for at least a year? That would be an extraordinarily long time for any Colonel, or even a Major, to be gone. And considering most of those on this trip were humans, it was easier to guess why there wasn’t any nobility. This had nothing to do with nobility, which also somewhat surprised her. Something wasn’t adding up very well.

She was turning Tenshu onto his back when the man made the demand of her. She would need to have a talk with Lizumeizei about just what he had been thinking. Her going out in public was a bad idea. It was a horrible idea, really. She had been claimed dead for over two years. She wasn’t supposed to be on this voyage. She didn’t want to be linked back to Lizumeizei. It was especially bad since she had no idea what she was doing. Her rudimentary nobility training hadn’t gone this far and what she did remember was questionable at best. She’d make the Hakinato First Family and the Grand Mage look bad at the same time.

But to stay on the ship, it appeared she had to try. She could do a glamour, but given that she was going to be with these same humans for an undetermined amount of time, putting on a glamour for the public would only make them wary of her. Wary humans led to suspicion and attempts to discover whatever she was hiding and then, inevitably, fighting. She didn’t really fancy having to kill the crew or anyone else on the ship. She especially didn’t want to have to kill any of the crew, since they were going to be keeping the ship flying. She had no piloting or engineering skills, not to mention just thinking too long about the fact she was about to go out into space on a giant space submarine made her queasy.

So she was going to have to go out there with her real face and hope that she was far enough that the cameras weren’t able to see her properly. Though, once she thought about it, or rather once she thought about it rationally, it wasn’t that big of a deal. As long as her hair covered her spoors, it was fine. She and Amaya looked almost identical from any sort of distance. In fact, most of their distant female Graceling and Hakinato cousins looked very similar to them. And they didn’t have a monopoly on olive skin, black hair, and blue eyes. Plenty of female aelfes looked just like her.

She rubbed the blood on her hands off onto Tenshu’s shirt.

“Lady Consort?” Rain’s voice held tension in it this time and it made Amadhay wonder about him. How much of Christein and Benjy’s mission did he know? How deep into this was he? Or was he just stressed by the RA to do something worthwhile? She couldn’t help but to feel like there was something more to this, something other than just her being stubborn that was bothering him.

Once her hands were no longer bloody, she waved her hand and thought a silent spell to make Tenshu invisible to everyone but herself. If she was going to leave him in an unwarded room, she was certainly going to put some sort of protection in place. She closed her hands into fists and then snapped them open, flicking her wrists up and apart. A quick purple glaze went over the room, leaving an alarm system for her so that she would know if anyone came in while she was gone, and she would know who they were and what they did.

One of the people at the door began knocking as Amadhay slid her knife back into its sheath. Patting her thighs to be sure that all four knives and her miniature gun were still in place, she went to the door and opened it, nearly getting a fist to her face for her trouble.

At her door stood Rain Kit, an impressive looking man, if a bit short. His brown hair was in neat waves around his face, the length of it pulled back into a low bun. He wore the uniform of a captain, which had surprised her, since she knew it was rare for coordinators to actually be a part of the crew. His dark, almost-black eyes took in her appearance, from her neatly curled hair, framing her face and hiding her cheeks, down to her coiling necklace, a magical pendant from Lizu, down her sleeve-less, navy blue dress, to her four-inch heeled shoes that matched the dress. He focused on her eyes for longer than he should have, making her uncomfortable for a moment, before smiling at her.

The smile was strained. Even then, it did nothing to make him look less commanding. His honey-colored skin was scarred, a mark going down his cheek and to his lips keeping him from being very attractive to her. She wondered how he got it. Standing maybe six inches taller than her own five feet, he was probably around three inches shorter than the woman who stood by his side. Her uniform was similar to his, telling Amadhay that she was his co-pilot and the second-in-command. What he didn’t have in height, he made up for in width. He was much pudgier than she had imagined, with a round belly and barrel chest, making the muscular woman beside him look like a wisp of a thing.

“Alright,” Amadhay smiled, closing the door behind her. A subtle twist of her fingers locked it behind her. “What was it you needed me to do?”

The woman nodded. “Thank you for working with us,” she started, already turning to lead Amadhay off. Amadhay followed her, very much aware of Rain Kit following behind her after a long moment of staring at her door. “I understand from Captain Kit that you’re here to get some time away from the media involved being the Qwuill Master’s consort.”

“The Grand Mage,” Amadhay corrected. “I’m the Grand Mage’s consort.”

“Same difference,” the woman muttered only loud enough for her to hear, and Amadhay was positive right then and there that she didn’t trust her. Few people knew that Lizumeizei was both the Qwuill Master and the Grand Mage, and ever fewer talked about it with such nonchalance. “Either way, considering that after today, we’ll be in space, and only stopping to either refuel or gather up some resources, for the most part, you will have no worries about the media.” She smiled a large smile that made Amadhay uncomfortable. “We only need you to wave us off and be our face when we stop on other planets, but that will be rare. Otherwise, you’re free to do as your heart desires.”

Somehow I doubt that, Amadhay thought, but just nodded along. She glanced back at Rain Kit, who was watching her closely enough to make her wary. “As for the two men the Grand Mage sent with me? They’d like to sleep in the Crew dormitories. They want to be as much help as they can, considering there won’t be much here to threaten me.”

Something flashed in his eyes, making Amadhay sure that he knew more than she had first assumed. The second-in-command, however, was an open book. “Oh, that’s good. We were hoping they would. We needed the extra muscle and those two definitely have some to spare.”

Amadhay forced herself to laugh with the woman. “How soon are we setting off?” she asked.

“Well, most of the crew is settled in. The lord and his knight have already found their places. So, really, if everything is optimal, which I think it is, we can begin lift off as you wave off.”

Amadhay supposed that letting the two know of her ignorance wouldn’t be such a big deal, especially not if she quickly fixed her lack of knowledge once she had time. “And why is this important?” she asked, making two steps for every one of the woman’s.

The human glanced down at Amadhay with surprise before giving her a longer look. “Aren’t you a bit young—”

Rain Kit jumped in before the woman could insult Amadhay fully. “Good luck,” he answered, walking beside her. Amadhay felt like she had to walk close to the wall to give him space, though he wasn’t truly that large. “Having the highest ranking person on board wave us off tells the Goddess that our voyage is wanted by the nobility so that we will be able to leave the atmosphere.”

The woman huffed. “Superstitious nonsense to remind everyone who is in charge,” she corrected, making Amadhay look her over appraisingly. “Benjym Base himself developed the new technology in our ship to give us less than a 1% chance of atmospheric combustion. He even developed new technology to help recycle the air.”

Amadhay nodded slowly. She was obviously knowledgeable about the ship. “I didn’t catch your name,” she said, recognizing that she needed to stay close to this woman in the future to get more information.

The woman gave her a distracted smile. “I’m Gilia Harpess, Co-Captain and Second in Command of this ship.”

“Nice to meet you. I’m Amadhay,” she responded, knowing that her not using her last name was noticed. Only elves and Ferals had no last names and for aelfe, last names were incredibly important for connections.

They were both watching her closely as they continued to walk to the opening that led to the main window panel that they had been using as a sort of balcony. She had a feeling that they were comparing her face to Amaya’s, but she didn’t give them anything more to go on.

“How long have you been with the Grand Mage?” Harpess asked.

“Since my blunderlust began,” she answered. To them, that would mean since she’d been ten. To her, it meant since she’d been fifteen, which wasn’t a lie. She had been with him, in a way, during the Madra mission, and since she’d considered herself to have been in love with him, she decided blunderlust started there. Especially since restarting her relationship with him had been lust, but now was starting to look like love. She wasn’t sure what she was with Lizumeizei. Whether it was love or lust was a question she’d been asking herself since he’d told her he loved her earlier. It was all part of blunderlust.

“And how old are you now?” Harpess asked before Rain Kit could stop her.

Amadhay grinned. “Nearly sixteen,” she answered, enjoying the look of relief on Harpess’ face. She wondered how young the woman had thought she was. She knew that she looked older, by human standards, but by aelfe standards she did look younger and even a human would catch that—especially if said human had regular contact with aelfe, which Amadhay had suspicions that Harpess did.

All of those thoughts stopped the moment they stood a few inches from the door. Pausing in the shadows as they reached the doorway, she began to overthink her situation again. This was it. She took a deep breath. This was the first time in over two years that she’d gone somewhere with a media circus. If she stepped out as she was now, she would be chancing her picture getting out. She could see without getting into their sight, that there were enough people that it was impossible to even hope that none of them would get a picture of her. The best that she could reasonably hope would be that it would be blurry.

Her biggest worry was about Mother Sari’s gang realizing that Lizumeizei’s protection was gone. Or at least that’s what the rational part of her brain said it should be. Her biggest worry, no matter how irrational it was, was that someone would recognize her as Amadhay Hakinato. They would make a big scene about her not being dead, would question what was happening in the Hakinato house that all three of the triplets had taken relatively drastic means to get away from the homestead. Hlala had taken refuge with Guy, who had used his Gift to get her away. Amaya had actually demanded emancipation, and when she’d been denied, had run away, only agreeing to the clan’s demands when she was appointed Hynnkel as her guardian. And now there would be her, pretending to be dead to get away.

Goddess. She took a deep breath and tried to force herself to take another step. She couldn’t. Her legs honestly wouldn’t move. She looked at Rain Kit, who had a bit of an annoyed expression, to Harpess, who had an understanding look, which the woman quickly covered when she turned her attention to the captain.

“Captain Kit?” Harpess took his attention off of Amadhay. “I’m sure that Lady Consort would feel more comfortable if we started to take off?” she suggested.

Amadhay immediately nodded. “You said that we could take off as I waved, so I’d like to do that.”

The man looked uncertain for a moment. “I could—”

Harpess cut him off. “You should go and start flying. The sooner you do, the sooner we’ll be off the ground. And when we’re off ground, Jaxley can take the navigation and you can take a well-deserved nap.”

Amadhay felt like she had missed some joke, because Rain Kit gave an obnoxious burst of laughter and patted Harpess on the back hard enough to make the woman make a face, though she didn’t move. The man turned on his heel and made quick work of disappearing down the halls. Harpess put her hand on Amadhay’s shoulder, but when the girl started to speak, she put a finger to her lips to silence her.

After almost three clacks, Harpess gave a slight nod. “Alright, he’s almost to the cockpit.” She smiled at Amadhay and turned to face the girl head on. “I apologize. Rain has bugged your room because he doesn’t trust Qwuill Master. I’ve made plans to fix that, but for now, please be aware of that and what you do and say in there.”

Amadhay nodded. “I noticed. You keep saying Qwuill Master.”

Harpess made a face. “I mean to say Grand Mage.”

“You work for Qwuill, don’t you?”

She pursed her lips. “I worked for the Roadesian Army. Yes, your Qwuill Master has shown interest, but I do not work for him.”

Her eyes and the tone told Amadhay that she was trying to say something more than that, but the teenager wasn’t sure what. There was a loud noise and the ground beneath her feet began to shake. Amadhay felt her stomach quiver.

Harpess gestured for her to begin the wave off. Amadhay started to walk out to the panel, but only got as far as the doorway. They’re going to recognize me and kill Lizumeizei and Arne Riff will kill me when I come back. I can’t do this. I have to go back. She started back, but Harpess was like a wall, keeping her in the doorway.

“You will be fine,” the woman promised in a low tone. “An impromptu sighting of a certain songstress and her siren posse caught the attention of all but the most desperate. Most of those out there are family and friends of the crew. Any picture they take will be distant.”

Amadhay was wary that the older woman knew all of this. At first, she feared the coincidence, her mind immediately going to Atlas, but when she took in Harpess’ cool, she knew this was all part of Lizumeizei’s plan. Lizumeizei had gone out of his way to make things easier on her.

So instead, she smiled and nodded, turning on her heel and going to the railing to wave, a smile plastered on her face even as she began to pick at her feelings for Lizumeizei once again. Did she love him or was it lust? Did she trust him? Did she deserve him?

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What do I need, what do I need? Amadhay thought to herself, rummaging through her closet for bags. She needed to pack. She was going on the mission with Benjy and Christein whether they wanted her to or not. They couldn’t stop her. No one could stop her. She was going. She couldn’t imagine spending Goddess only knew how long without either of them. Without them to ground her, she couldn’t imagine that she would stay sane.

Amadhay paused as she pushed clothes to either side, staring into her closet. Sitting there, on the floor, were the five bags she had refused to open. They were still fully packed and she had no illusions that they were missing anything she would need. The note had said that it was everything she had left with the Palnoki, down to her last hair pin. It would undoubtedly be everything she’d need for this extended mission. Maybe a bit more shampoo and other toiletries, she thought, but besides those, she would be good.

It would have clothes, weapons, books, even jewelry. She doubted they would have kept anything of hers, even if Atlas was still bothering her. She was willing to bet that it had been Atlas who had packed it all up and sent it to her, considering the others probably wanted to destroy every last memory of her after what she’d done to Ribbon.

If she took those bags, she wouldn’t have to waste time packing. There was no question in her mind that if she had to pack for herself, she would be there until nearly 8. These bags were packed, though. She could just grab them and get back to Adrian’s room. She could tend to Tenshu until she had to go.

That decided it for her. And with that decided, she was able to focus on the next most important thing, actually calling in and getting her spot on the ship. It took her a moment, given all the excitement that she’d had in the past few zoots or so to remember the website that the human on the train had shown her. It was easy enough from there to find the DS number for the contact about joining the mission. It was still listed, even though the site made it obvious that they weren’t interested in any more applicants.

So she called the number and, on the third ring, got the messaging system of “Rain Kit, coordinating director of the human led colonizing mission beyond Corindra.”

She had no doubt that she had purposely been sent to messaging, but that didn’t stop her from leaving a message. She had no doubt that he, just like everyone else, had a flagger in his messaging system to locate messages with important names. “Hello. I’m the Grand Mage’s,” she stumbled on the next word, but quickly regained her calm, “consort. I was told to contact you for immediate accommodations. I have an interest in this exploration and would like to join. I’d hate not to be allowed to come, after my love put so much interest into this project.” She wasn’t sure that Lizumeizei had put any credits forth on the mission, but she would bet that he had. He had his fingers in everything. “So if you have any room for me, please respond to this message.”

After a few clacks, she was worried that her request was going to be ignored. They had every right, given it was so last click and she had no real skills, or at least had spoken of no real skills, to put to service. At six clacks, however, she received a text message from Lizumeizei.

You’re in. Rain Kit will call within a clack to give you the basics of what you will need. They’re giving you a ‘friend’ for the duration of the trip to keep you out of their way. I chose a female for you, given you hardly need any more men to preoccupy you. I won’t ask why you’re going on this trip, but I will assume it has to do with the two ghost passengers. Be safe and call me daily. It’s your duty as my consort now. Don’t make me look bad.

Amadhay grinned. That was one less thing to worry about.

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She had to stabilize him. That was all that she knew. His bleeding seemed to have stopped, but he was also becoming stiff enough that she was having trouble carrying him upright. That was the first sign of death shock. If she could stabilize him before it fully hit, she could save him. She had to save him.

Amadhay had Tenshu partially propped up by her body, using all of her strength to keep him on his feet and moving. The necromancer was no longer conscious. She wasn’t even sure that he was alive. She had saved him from Christein, but she had no idea how close he was to death. She wasn’t a healer. She needed a healer.

But she couldn’t take him to Rea. After the Palnoki had invaded the Phoegani, Rea had memorized the faces and known abilities of every Palnoki member. If Amadhay took him to the dragon, the woman would immediately recognize him and give him up to Arne Riff. Besides, Amadhay wasn’t even sure that Rea knew what to do with a dying necromancer.

So no, she had to figure this out on her own. Looking around, she recognized that in her fearful state, she had gone to the Phoegani base. She was in Prisoner Securer dormitory area. In fact, she was right outside Adrian Thyme’s room. The falcon aelfe had been one of the few Phoegani members who felt only mildly threatened by her, and then only on her bad days, and one of the even fewer who still trusted her completely. She had only been friends with him since returning to the Phoegani, but the friendship was worthwhile for her. For him too, considering she had been the one to introduce him to Essebelle and the two were now promised.

He also owed her a major favor for covering for him with Christein when he had lost an oversized Arachin her cousin had brought in. She thought it over for a moment. She needed to lay Tenshu down so that she could figure out what to do with him. All Phoegani beds came equipped with the technology to calm the person lying in them as well as restraints in case he wasn’t quite into death shock and suddenly woke up. Restraints would keep him from hurting her, her from having to hurt him, and help keep him in place as she checked him over.

But Adrian’s bed? She wasn’t sure she knew the man well enough to trust him not to rat her out. But then again, what choice did she have? Rea would report him immediately, Essie’s room was completely on the other side of the building, both Christein and Benjy would probably try to finish the job if they saw him in this vulnerable of a position. She didn’t have a room here anymore. And taking him to her place was completely off the table. It had been long enough for Benjy to get back to his place, and once the two realized that she wasn’t showing up there, they’d look for her. That would be the first place Christein was going to look for her. She didn’t want him to know that she had saved someone he had tried very hard to kill.

So she knocked on Adrian’s door.

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Once Christein was gone, Amadhay glanced behind her, where her sister, Croy-li, and the little girl were. They were busy focusing on each other and hadn’t so much as glanced her way, which was precisely how she wanted it to stay.

She had no idea what had happened. All she remembered was being angry that Amaya could just be out and about, could obviously be herself and not have to hide, and then she had attacked her sister. Not only had she attacked her sister, but then she’d attempted to hurt her more, despite her personal vow never to harm Amaya again. And then she had almost really hurt that little girl, who had nothing to do with any of this. If it hadn’t been for Croy-li and her horrific doll, she honestly could have killed that child. And all because she had called her mean and kicked her.

She had a temper, but her temper wasn’t that bad.

If it hadn’t been for Amaya, or whatever had taken over Amaya, tackling her, she would have killed Croy-li. That she wouldn’t have felt as bad about, given their history, but it would definitely have caused real trouble. She didn’t even remember what not-Amaya had said to her, but she knew that it had calmed her down enough that the red film had disappeared from her vision and the dark whispers in the back of her head had silenced. And then she was sitting there, forehead to forehead with her sister, staring into her ocean blue eyes, confused and hurting. The last words not-Amaya had said before crumbling had been, “Save him.”

Save him? Save who? It hadn’t been that hard to figure out who, though. She had scanned the area for Christein and Benjy. While Benjy was absent, she could make an easy assumption that he was trying to cleanse the security footage of their presence. Christein was standing in the water of the ruined fountain, staring at her in a strange mixture of fear and confusion. But beyond that, beyond his emotions towards her, she could see exuberance, accomplishment, and a kind of malicious glee. It was that that made her stomach fall. He had hurt someone. He had hurt someone that she needed to save. She knew it had to be the person that not-Amaya wanted her to save. It had to be.

And when her eyes went from Christein, to follow a groan she couldn’t possibly have heard across the fountain but she had, she saw Tenshu.

She knew it was Tenshu, even if his face was planted on the seat of the fountain, keeping him above the water. His auburn hair was only his. She had never seen hair that color, that long and that silken smooth except on him. And once she had been able to discern that it was him, that he was alive, she knew that she had to get Christein away from him before she could help him. She knew that Christein’s hatred of Tenshu ran hot and that he would kill him as soon as look at him, and with Tenshu in that state, it was incredibly likely that the necromancer would die.

So she had shooed Christein away. He had to have been confused if he had gone along with her story, considering she had absolutely no computer abilities. She would be about as much help to Benjy as Christein, less, in fact. The only thing she had going for her was her size. And given her strange actions previous, it was protocol to remove her from the situation, yet here she was.

And there he was.

She rushed to Tenshu’s side almost as soon as Christein had left. She had waited a few clicks, just in case he was doing his normal disappear, reappear invisible thing. When she didn’t smell him, she went to Tenshu. Tenshu groaned softly, his skin paling further by the click and he was bleeding from his head. Don’t heal a head wound, she reminded herself, pulling him further out of the water. He helped her as much as he could, which was very little. She could tell he was weak by the way he only barely opened his eyes to look at her. His pupils were pinpricks and his breathing was shallow and getting slower.

“C’mon Ten. Don’t you dare die on me,” she whispered, using the stability of the seat and Tenshu’s own weight to help her lift him up. Once she had him upright, he wrapped his own arms around her shoulders. She thought he was trying to say something, but she couldn’t understand it, so she ignored his murmurings.

“What are you doing to him!” she heard someone cry out as she tried to walk with him away from the fountain.

“One of them is over here!” another voice cried out, alerting Amadhay to the arrival of the Local Force. For the briefest click, she considered leaving Tenshu, but she didn’t.

“Don’t let go of me,” she warned Tenshu. Then she teleported the two of them away.

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Amadhay wondered if Christein even knew how relieved he looked when they left Stalia behind on the ziptrain at their stop. She had cheerfully exchanged information chips with her, putting each other into their DS’s data strips, all the while with Christein looking as if the human had personally insulted him. If she hadn’t noted that he had only become nervous when Stalia was talking about the colonization project, she would have thought he was jealous.

But he had definitely only become nervous when the space colonization had come up, which pricked at her curiosity. What about that did he not want her to know? Was there something the Phoegani was doing? She could understand that the Phoegani, specifically Procedures and Information, was keeping information from her, considering it was still a possibility that she was a Palnoki spy. She hated it, but she understood.

What was strange, though, was that Christein was keeping something from her. Even when he had been cold toward her, he had never seen a reason to keep tight-lipped about mission information. He had told her about the strangeness going on with Wonder Girls and Co., even though it was definitely top secret, considering a war was brewing involving them, Kayden, and a large portion of the united RA. The Phoegani was trying to pick it apart, but so far hadn’t had much progress, especially since they were definitely blaming the Palnoki. Amadhay had told him then, and still believed now, that the Palnoki had no part of it. Atlas didn’t like easy feats. He wouldn’t pit the rest of Roadesia against itself just so he could conquer them. There were too many loose ends. It was too sloppy to be his work. No, this was someone else and so long as she knew that, she saw no reason for her to get involved when they didn’t want her to.

So she couldn’t understand what about this colonization he didn’t want her to know. It seemed pretty straightforward. The humans were tired of being the bottom of the social ladder, so they were going to try to colonize and spread like roaches elsewhere. Why was he getting so anxious? Did he think she was going to try and run off with them? Her? On a giant, pressurized metal balloon flying in space, with no oxygen for miles around and a possibility of hostile aliens stronger and faster than her or for the giant balloon to break down some way? Yeah, he knew that wasn’t going to happen.

She smiled sweetly at him, grabbing his hand. “So let’s get shopping,” she said, pulling him from the train station, across the street, to the Mall. She had only been here a few times, and each time had been more amazing than the previous. The last time, she had come with Nolando and Anne, before Arne Riff had demanded they hand her over to him. Anne had tried to convince Nolando that Amadhay needed a beautiful, if a bit provocative, aqua dress for future court appearances, but her cousin had been staid in his stance and she had ended up with a similar, though much less (or rather much more in terms of fabric) showy one that glittered in the light when she moved. It reminded her of the snow at the Snow Castle despite its dark coloring.

That last time, she had seen an ensemble in one of the shop windows that she had known was made for Christein. When she had stopped to stare at it, Anne had jokingly told her that the store probably didn’t carry any of it in her size. Amadhay had chosen not to say that she wasn’t looking at it for her, knowing how awkward things got when she mentioned Christein around Nolando or Anne. Thinking on it, she wondered if they could see her attraction to him, if their interference had been to keep what had happened the previous night from happening. No, she decided, they just don’t like Monkey.

That store was the one she was pulling her cousin to first, when she was distracted by a store that specialized in vampire and dark elf styles. The customers leaving the store were completely decked out in black clothes and shining from multiple piercings all over their bodies. Her first thought was I bet Tenshu shops here. Her second thought was on just how good Christein would look in those clothes. While true, it wasn’t what most aelfen lords in their twenties were wearing, it would fit with her cousin’s chosen persona. He was dark and broody, which would be paired much better with dark clothes that cried out mystery and danger, than the brightly colored, tight and flamboyant clothes most aelfe court males were wearing lately. He would look ridiculous dressed in tight aqua pants, slightly heeled brown boots, and a tight white shirt with a bow tie at the collar, she decided as she watched a man around Christein’s age walk past wearing just that. He would be uncomfortable, and the last thing she wanted was for him to be uncomfortable in what she dressed him.

“Can we get a hurry on it?” Christein asked her as she paused, eyeing all the different men passing them. He had yet to pull his hand from hers, which she counted as a win for her. In fact, he was much more relaxed than she had ever seen him in a crowd of so many people. She eyed him for a long moment, seeing the calm smirk at the corner of his lips as he watched people pass by them. His free hand was on the back of his neck, as if he had been scratching there, and he looked good despite the fact that his shirt had her lipstick on it.

She flushed, looking down at their interlocked hands. “Um. Sure. But, uh…Monkey…” she looked up at the red stain right below one of his buttons and then up to his teal eyes. He looked incredibly amused. “I’m, uh, my, you have…” she moved closer to him and he leaned down when she gestured at him. “You have my lipstick on your shirt,” she whispered into his ear.

He laughed, straightening back up. “I know, Mayday. That’s why I’m getting new clothes. So maybe we should get on that?”

Amadhay rolled her eyes. “Fine,” she responded even though she was smiling. He was out with her mark on him.

She tugged him in the direction of the dark shop called Poison Dreams, which she thought was a ridiculous name. He paused right outside, staring at a pair of men walking out together, holding hands and completely covered in ink and metal, their black clothes strategically torn and weighed down with chains and had skulls and crossbones covering everywhere. Their faces, the only place not covered in tattoos, instead had multiple piercings, black eyeliner and black eye shadow. Both of them had black hair with brightly colored streaks that was long enough to cover their ears and force her to have to guess what they were. She would say human, Shifter, or aelfe, given that they weren’t nearly as tall as Christein (since he was abnormal and clearly should have been born an elf or witch) but not short either, like a vampire. When Amadhay stared at them as well, the men smirked and one grabbed the other’s face, turning his head to plant a kiss on the other’s lips.

Amadhay honestly couldn’t pull her eyes away from them. She felt Christein shift at her back, but still didn’t look away. The soft jingle of the men’s lip rings (and she was pretty positive but wouldn’t swear, tongue rings) was music to her ears. The one who had initiated the kiss glanced back at her again and smirked.

“A picture would last longer,” the second one said.

She nodded slowly, lifting her wrist DS to snap a picture. “You are incredibly right. Kiss again?”

The second one laughed while the first one quirked his eyebrow challengingly. “Why don’t you have your twine take the picture and you join us?”

 “Cousin,” she immediately corrected but still didn’t take her hand from Christein’s. She probably wouldn’t have been able to, considering his grip tightened when she said ‘cousin’. He moved in tight behind her.

“Oh, really?”

She laughed this time, only coyly. “Oh yeah. No strings on me,” she said with a flutter of her eyelashes. Both men grinned. “So how about that kiss?”

When both men laughed, she heard a possessive hiss come from her cousin. Initially, neither man looked intimidated in the least, telling her that they were used to non-humans, but as they continued to look at Christein rather than her, the two began to move away. Amadhay glanced back and up at her cousin, to see that his eyes were turning red right in public. She swatted at him to try to break his concentration on whatever spell he was trying to do. “Monkey!” she squeaked, and his eyes moved from the men and to her, immediately turning back to teal.

She glanced back at the men, who were all but running away. “I’m sorry!” she called after them before looking back at her cousin. “Geeze. Can’t take you anywhere,” she muttered with only a small amount of annoyance. Mostly, she was excited. His possessiveness was a good sign for her. It meant that he saw her as his, just like she saw him. He was hers.

“Let’s just get clothes,” he muttered, trying to pull her away from the store.

“We are,” she said, trying to pull him into it.

“Not there we aren’t,” he argued.

She pouted pitifully. “Why not?” she whined. “You’d look good.”

“I think you’re—”

Monkey,” she whined. “You’d look even better than those guys. I mean stop in your tracks, drop your pants immediately hot. Everyone would want some of you,” she tried. “It’s super up and current,” she lied. It wasn’t, but after seeing those two, she definitely wanted to dress him up in whatever she could find in this store.

When Christein tried to argue again, she leveled him with the full force of her kitten eyes. Just as many a Hakinato had, he fell victim to the power of her sad eyes and sighed. “Fine, enough with the kitten eyes. I said you’d get to pick it out, so let’s go on in.”

Only five clacks later, she had him regretting agreeing to giving her power over his wardrobe. She had to have picked out one of everything in the store and piled it onto his arms before she was content.

“Go on, try some of it on,” she ushered him, smiling sweetly when he started to scowl her way. Almost immediately, his scowl dropped and he headed to the dressing rooms with her trailing close behind him.

When he got to one of the stalls, he kicked the door closed in her face. She whined, staring at the door and listening close to him pulling clothes out of the pile. “Monkey, I can’t tell you what to wear if I’m out here.”

“Too bad, because you’re not coming in here.” His voce held a teasing edge to it.

“Oh really?” she challenged him.

“Really,” he said seriously. “I dress, come out to show you. That’s how this is working.”

“It’d go faster if I were in there with you,” she pointed out.

“No, it would go a lot slower because we both know you can’t be trusted in the same room with me undressing.”

“I’m insulted. I can keep my hands to myself,” she claimed, trying to look into the crack of the door. Nothing. The doors must have been warded for privacy. If they were, the ward was good because she couldn’t feel it, even when touching the door.

He opened the door and she jumped back to not be hit by it. “How’s this?” he asked, his resigned face telling her that he didn’t like what he saw in the mirror.

Looking at him, she pressed her lips to keep herself from laughing. He was wearing a ripped top and tight pants that would have looked good on one of the pretty boys walking around the shop, but on him, they looked ridiculous. It was like dressing a tiger Feral in a poofy dress and claiming it was no longer dangerous.

“Yeah, no. You look too…pretty,” she saw his face begin to close off the moment she said that. It was his automatic reaction whenever someone said he wasn’t pretty. It hurt her to be the one, but he wasn’t. He had been, but the scars and his subsequent hairstyle to hide them kept him from being pretty. He could pull off dangerous, mysterious, even breathtaking on a good day, but pretty was never a word anyone would use when describing him ever again. “You’re more…I dunno. Rugged, maybe. Toss all the torn shirts my way. They aren’t working for you. Try the red shirt with the webbing sleeves with those pants, maybe.”

His movements were mechanical as he went back into the dressing room, closing the door tightly behind him before she could try to join him again. When he came back out, she saw that he had ignored her advice and this time was wearing a black leather jacket with a slightly torn shirt underneath above looser jeans and a studded black belt.

She stared at him for a long moment before he shifted uncomfortably. “What’s wrong with this one?” he asked her.

Nothing, she thought, before remembering that she wanted him to look mysterious, but not obviously dangerous. Dressed like that, he looked like who he really was, a man who could punch a Feral’s face in while breaking an arachin’s ribs with a kick and not even break a sweat. He looked good, too good really. “Now too rugged. You look like you’re going to murder everyone who looks at you too long. I don’t think that’d hide your identity very well,” she teased as well as she could, trying to hide her real reaction.

She must not have done it very well, because a slow, knowing smirk eased onto Christein’s lips, and instead of going back into the changing room, he moved forward, to her. Playing with her curls with one hand, he leaned down toward her. “You like me dressed like this, don’t you?” he whispered into her ear, “All dangerous and threatening.”

She shivered, looking up at him. He knew her too well. She leaned up, trying to kiss him, but he apparently just wanted to tease her, because he straightened up and walked back into the changing room.

“What was it you wanted me to try on?” he called out to her after a click. She was still trying to calm herself down.

“Um. The red shirt with webbing. I think those pants are better on you. So toss me the tight ones, kay?”

“Okay,” he called to her, sounding muffled as if his head were covered in fabric. She assumed he was changing shirts.

Regardless of him teasing her, she’d still gained something. He hadn’t denied that his clothes were for hiding his identity. That told her they were for the mission. “So how long’s the mission going to be?” she asked, moving closer to the changing room door so that she could speak softer and others might not hear her.

“I’m not sure,” he said.

“Where’re you going?”

“We’re in public, I’d rather not talk about this,” he said, opening the door and stepping out.

She gave him a long look when he raised his eyebrows expectantly. It was good, but something was missing. She slipped past him, to the clothes pile and began digging. “It only really matters when you think someone’s around to hear. Do you think someone’s listening?”

“No,” Christein said. “But it doesn’t hurt to be careful. You never know.”

Amadhay shrugged and pulled a black vest from the pile. It had shiny, silver studs on the lining and looked dangerous where the red shirt looked pretty. Christein shrugged into it and buttoned it closed before gesturing to Amadhay to get her decision.

It was just what she wanted, a nice mixture of pretty and dangerous. The prettiness softened his danger, making him seem more of a question than a definite threat. No one would underestimate him, but neither would there be a target plastered to his forehead. The red and black was like blood and shadows, and the gleaming silver of the studs reminded her of his blades. It was a great outfit, perfect for him.

“Perfect,” she decided.

“Yay. Now we can buy one outfit when I need at least ten,” Christein stated drily, giving her a small smile.

She rolled her eyes. “Well now that I know that looks good on you, I know what else to pair together, silly.”

“Ah,” was all he said, nodding as she pushed him in the direction of the dressing room again. Before she could try to slip in with him, he pushed her back by the forehead and closed the door in her face. “What next?”

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Christein gave Amadhay a knowing look when she stumbled into him, grabbing his shirt as the ziptrain bounced over a bit of rocky terrain. She was much too stable for the slight bouncing to knock her enough to force her to need to grab him. She was only doing it to grab onto him and with a smirk, he squeezed her hands before removing them from his shirt. She didn’t even pretend to be embarrassed or apologetic, instead beaming up at him before grabbing hold of the pole that was just to the side of him. She smiled winningly at the man standing beside him, but when Christein cut a look to the man, the human backed away and hurriedly moved to the more densely occupied part of the train, away from the two of them.

“You didn’t have to scare him off,” Amadhay pouted, taking the opportunity to spin around the pole at a slow pace. Now that the last human had distanced himself from them, the two of them were the only two on this compartment of the train. As the only two non-humans on the train this morning, he wasn’t surprised. Humans rarely bothered non-humans before sunset (and it was well before sunset), since those that did had a habit of dying or becoming enslaved in some form. No self-respecting aelfe, elf, or vampire would take a job that would force them to be awake at this ridiculous time, and having a job was the only logical reason for being out and about.

“He was annoying me,” Christein offered, stretching his arms up so that he could hold onto the poles hanging vertically, the ones normally used by Halfers or elves. He smirked to himself when he looked down at Amadhay, who was eyeing the high poles with disdain. She could barely reach it if she jumped, which he honestly wanted to see. He thought it would be hilarious.

“Well, maybe I liked him,” Amadhay tried. Christein rolled his eyes at her obvious ploy. The day she lowered her standards enough to look at a human was the day he and Nolando had a civilized conversation. She was only trying to make him jealous, which wasn’t going to happen because he didn’t care.

She was his cousin. His little cousin, practically his sister, so he didn’t care if she was interested in someone else. She was allowed to be interested in others, in fact it would make his life easier if she were. What had happened the previous night couldn’t happen again, not ever. It shouldn’t have happened the one time it had. He had been in an altered mentality because he was feeling bad about having to leave her for the Extraterrestrial Colonization mission. In fact, he still was. He felt bad for lying to her about it being a quick mission. He had no idea when he would be back, or if he would ever be back. It was dangerous to leave Resor, and worse to go with the mission he had.

To top it all, he felt even worse that he was taking Ben with him. He knew that Amadhay cared for the phantom nearly as much as she cared for him. If there was any one else he felt comfortable handing her over to, it was Ben. He knew that there was something between the two of them, something Ben had been trying to cultivate for a year now. Only, because she was so focused on him, she continuously misread the situation with Ben, which he found to be disturbing. It was obvious that she loved Ben in a way that she couldn’t love him.

But they were both going on this mission, and had no idea when they would be back or what might happen to her in the interim time. That scared him. The idea of her being left behind, without him or Ben to watch her back scared him out of his mind. With what she had told him about the Lord Palnoki, he was worried that the man would take advantage of that time to take her again. He knew, perhaps better than anyone, how vulnerable she was to anyone who knew her weak points. She had a lot, despite how strong and put together she tried to be. Him and Ben both leaving would only open a set of wounds she had never learned to truly deal with, the ones that had never healed.

“Helloooo,” Amadhay was saying, waving her hand in front of his face to get his attention. “Resor to Monkey, Mayday calling in,” she said jokingly.

He forced a smile. She had no idea how ironic it was that she was saying that. “What?” he asked, reminding himself to be nicer to her. This day was about making her happy before he left. It was his only goal, the most important goal he could have after failing at keeping her safe from himself last night.

“So you never explained why we need to get you a whole new wardrobe,” she stated, letting go of the pole. She allowed the turning of the train to knock her into him again and this time he didn’t try to push her away, instead choosing to put his arm over her shoulders.

“I’m not sure if you noticed, but between you and our missions, I’ve lost a lot of clothes this last month or so. I didn’t have that many to start with,” he explained, though he wasn’t being completely truthful. He still had clothes, enough that he wasn’t in a bind just yet. He didn’t, however, have the clothes he would need for his mission. He was supposed to act his age, even though he was to have an administrative job. The crew was expecting a 20-something aelfe lord, a spoiled and young aelfe up to modern standards. He rarely fit that description. His clothes definitely didn’t. All he owned were black slacks, steel-toed boots, trench coats, and button down dress shirts. He needed Amadhay to choose a younger looking, more modern wardrobe for him. Even if he would have trouble acting the part, he could at least dress it.

“Okay,” she said, nuzzling her head into his side. “But why do you need me? You buy the same clothes. All the time.”

“I’m trying to try something new,” he said, choosing his words carefully. If he wasn’t careful, she would realize that it was for his mission, which would make her curious. A curious Amadhay only ever led to trouble.

“New how?” she asked, moving back from him when he gave no reaction to her overindulgent touches. She reached behind her for the pole and leaned back against it.

“I thought I might dress my age,” he suggested. Her face lit up. “And I figured there was no better person to help me do that than the person who pays the most attention to men my age,” he teased her. She didn’t even seem to catch the slight censure to his words. She was almost ten years younger than him.

“Oh my—Are you going to be my My Mystery Escort doll?” she squealed excitedly, jumping up and down. Christein looked away from her, over to the crowds of humans who were now watching them warily.

“I wouldn’t go that far,” Christein said, shrugging off the feeling that they were being watched. They were, but it was just by curious humans. Nothing to worry about.

She pouted. “But I’d let you make me your My Secret Goddess doll,” she flirted, fluttering her eyelashes at him. She looked ridiculous.

He rolled his eyes. “I can assure you that I’m not interested in playing dress up with you,” he stated, before thinking he might have been a bit too harsh and smiled at her to soften his words. She didn’t even seem bothered.

“Shame. I’ve been told that I’m a fun doll.” He frowned when a strange expression flitted across her face. She covered it with a flirty smile, pushing herself forward with the pole. “So I get to choose whatever I’d like to see you in?”

“As long as it’s reasonable,” he corrected her. “I still need to be able to move in it. Nothing too tight or too heavy.”

“But everyone’s wearing tight pants now,” she whined. When he gave her a long look, she huffed. “Fine. I guess I’ll figure something out that won’t make you uncomfortable,” she grumbled, making him smile. He gently ran his hand over her hair, careful not to shift her hair from its symmetrical loose bun. She shivered under his touch, pressing up, into his hand. She gave a gentle purr before flushing, pulling back from him and glancing back at the humans.

“Oh, so now you’re playing shy?” he teased her, gently brushing the back of his hand against her cheek. She purred, rubbing against his hand before taking back control of her cat and pulling back from him with a whine.

“We’re in public,” she whispered, nervously playing with one of the curls loose on the side of her face.

Christein glanced over her head, to the humans who were pointedly not looking at the two of them. “I doubt the humans care very much,” he muttered, but pulled his hand back to his side, reminding himself not to touch her like that again. It was too intimate, especially with her reacting as sweetly as she did.

“I don’t care,” she muttered, avoiding eye contact as she stared at her feet. He followed her gaze down from her face, to her graphic shirt and brown cropped jacket, to her denim clad thighs and finally to her black, mid-calf boots. They had a wicked heel to them, making him wonder how she even walked in them. Can she run in those? He asked himself, before looking away from her and out of the window. The scenery was moving past quickly, going from the wooded lands of Hartin to the sandy desert separating Ha’s Region from Ridden. They only had about ten more clacks before they were in Ratigattan again. The last time they had been there together had been on the mission where Hynnkel had nearly killed him. He was honestly, feeling wary about going back to the city, but it had the best clothes district in all of Roadesia, and he had been given a generous allowance to buy a new wardrobe for this mission. He was certainly going to take advantage of it.

“So what caused your new interest in clothes?” Amadhay asked after a few clacks of silence on both their parts.

He glanced back to her, watching her for a moment as she looked the crowds of humans over. On the past three stops, they had gained a few brave humans who didn’t let the presence of the aelfe push them into the other, crowded compartments, so they were no longer alone and that made him much more aware of what he was saying.

“I was thinking of getting out more,” he lied, “Maybe weving with some.”

He felt bad the moment Amadhay’s face fell. He shouldn’t have said that, even if he had meant it, which he hadn’t. This was all about making Amadhay happy before leaving, not reminding her that they could never be together. That wasn’t necessary. He knew she would come to that realization on her own. She was a genius, after all.

“Oh,” was all she said, turning to face another teenager. She smiled widely at the girl, showing off her sharp canines. The human didn’t even seem fazed.

“Morning,” the blonde girl stated, giving Amadhay a flash of a smile before focusing back on her DS.

“Whatcha doing?” Amadhay asked curiously, moving around from pole to pole to stand beside the girl and look over her shoulder. The human didn’t flinch or try to hide the screen, instead tilting it down so that Amadhay could see as well.

“The RA is sending out a bunch of colonizers,” the other girl said, glancing at Amadhay. While Amadhay’s eyes were focused on the screen, the girl studied her. A small curve came to her lips and she shifted a little so that their shoulders were touching. Christein narrowed his eyes. “They’re headed out at 8 tonight, so they’re showing all the prep here.”

“Cool,” Amadhay said, sounding honestly intrigued. “Where are they going?”

“Who knows?” she shrugged. “They’re going further than before, so it’s all a bunch of question marks. I’m Stalia, by the way.”

Amadhay fluttered her eyes. “Amadhay,” she responded with a coy smile. Christein held himself from pulling her back to him. Amadhay glanced at him with a smirk. “And that’s my cousin, Chris,” she said, gesturing to him.

He knew what she was doing. She was trying to make him jealous, trying to force him to decide that their blood relation didn’t matter. It did, though. It mattered a lot. Besides, she couldn’t make him jealous, he tried to assure himself. Beyond the fact that he didn’t care, he knew for a fact that she was neither into humans nor into girls.

“Hello, Cousin Chris,” Stalia said, glancing at him before turning her attention back to Amadhay. “So what are you doing up so early? I thought aelfe slept in til noon.”

Amadhay shrugged. “Different aelfe, just like different humans. I’m a cat, so I catnap all day,” she lied through her teeth. Christein tried not to laugh at the human’s gullible expression. It was so easy to convince humans of all sorts of strange things. “So why are you so interested in the colonizing?” she asked, taking the teenager’s attention away from what they were doing there. Christein wondered if she even noticed she had done that, or if it was second nature to her to be secretive.

“My brother’s one of them,” Stalia said, swiping her fingers over the screen of her DS. “See? That’s the crew.”

Christein aborted a jerk forward. He wasn’t in any crew picture. Arne Riff had personally demanded that information of him and Ben going on the trip be classified. Arne Riff always got his way. He might need to end their conversation soon, though. Too much information might make Amadhay able to piece it together. The last thing he wanted was for her to realize that his mission was on the interplanetary colonization ship. He didn’t want her to mope around or otherwise be sneaky and try to join them.

“Wow. It looks all human,” Amadhay stated, squinting her eyes at the screen. “No animal-kind?”

“Some, but mostly Logicals. Too dangerous to go out in space with a Natural, right?”

Amadhay laughed. “I dunno. Out in space, the sun doesn’t exactly rise and fall, does it?”

“I don’t think anyone’s tried it out before,” Stalia said drily. “They like the other people too much. And, ya know, morals.”

“Morals shmorals,” Amadhay joked. “But is that all? Animal-kind and humans? What if they run into hostiles?”

Stalia rolled her eyes. “They’re all very capable of taking care of themselves. They don’t need any aelfe to protect them.”

Amadhay snorted. “Not aelfe. No aelfe in their right mind would jump on a spaceship. Too closed in.”

“Well, maybe you should tell that to the noble who’s going with them.”

“What?” Amadhay asked, looking curiously at Stalia. Christein moved forward, but didn’t intervene, knowing that if he did, that she would be twice as suspicious.

“Yeah, some spoiled aelfe lord is going with them. Apparently his dad pulled strings and got him and a friend on.”

“Why?” Amadhay asked, looking bemused.

“Who knows,” the blonde responded with a shrug. “Alls I know is that the crew aren’t too happy about it. They’re gonna have to wait on him instead of doing their jobs. Lame, right?”

“Super lame,” Amadhay agreed softly, her eyes flickering over to Christein. When she smiled at him, not looking suspicious, he relaxed. She didn’t suspect yet.

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Amadhay jolted awake, gasping for breath even as she cried out in a strangled choke. “Ri—” she caught herself before she said the full name, sitting up and clutching her throat where she still had the scar from her fight with Ribbon. Still disoriented from her dream, she looked around, frightened of every shadow until her rationality caught up with her and she remembered where she was. She was in her house. In her room. In her bed. There was no canopy to her bed, no chandelier-like overhanging. There was no one there but herself.

Curling up in her bed, she roughly pressed her palms to her eyes, trying to convince herself that she was trying to rub sleep out, not keep herself from crying. Rubbing her scar once more, she took four evenly deep breaths to calm herself. She stared at the pine trees on the mosaic of her walls, focusing on them rather than the snow, beach, or sunset tiles. She chose not to focus on the cat the mosaic formed, a reminder of Indigo, feeling not for the first time that it looked too much like Mayday. She didn’t want to think about anything Palnokian. Not Ribbon, not Mayday, and certainly not Atlas.

It’s fine. I’m here. I’m in my house. Atlas is far away. Ribbon is dead. No one is going to hurt me. No one else is here. Just as she thought that, she heard movement downstairs. She tilted her head, her ear twitching as she listened harder. There it was, the sound of a stool’s legs scraping against the kitchen floor, the only floor (besides that in the bathroom and considering she doesn’t have chairs in the bathroom, she was going to say it was a pretty decent guess that the intruder wasn’t in there) that wouldn’t make a muffled sound from the carpet. Thinking that the intruder was probably Atlas or one of his, and determined not to be weak any longer, Amadhay pulled the switchblade from underneath her pillow. Moving nearly silently, as the cat of her aelfe was wont to do, Amadhay crept down the stairs.

Ruffling and shuffling came from the kitchen and Amadhay stayed silent, moving slower now that she was close. Her Gift would have been good to use right then, but she recognized that if the intruder were Sha’adahk, Tenshu, Atlas, or Ribbon, that it probably would do her better to be slow and unrecognized. Her breathing slowed to an almost even and calm pattern. Four clicks in, four clicks held, four clicks out. She stood just out of the kitchen, to the side of the doorway where she could see in but not be seen by whomever was in there.

Fingering the blade open, Amadhay narrowed her eyes against the dark. The cat of her aelfe gave her strong night vision, but not infallible. It was too dark in there for her to see very well. The figure was moving slowly through the dark, large enough to either have to be a man or a large female. She stuck the tip of her tongue out of the corner of her mouth as she steadied her hand. Thinking on it for a long click, she couldn’t think of anyone she would want in her house who would be there, rummaging around in the dark. It wasn’t an Arachin or a large Feral, which left her with a good number of enemies who could wish her harm.

Or worse, she realized. It could be Atlas.

That thought had her wrist flicking to send the knife into the room before she could draw another breath. Atlas had no room in her home, not now and not ever. He wanted to hurt her Benjy and Monkey. He—

Monkey! Christein had been in her house when she had gone to sleep. He had gone to bed with her. He would go through the house without the lights on because he had a strange aversion to false lighting. She had just thrown her blade at Christein. By the time she had fully realized that and moved to catch the blade, she could see it glinting in the dark but not moving.

She switched the light on to see her cousin holding the blade with one hand, his back still to her as he fixed a sandwich. He used the blade to cut his sandwich before glancing back at her, where she was still standing in the doorway, surprised but pleased. She hadn’t hurt him. He was still there.

“How rude,” he teased, smirking at her “And after all I do for you.”

She smiled at him, running across the room to jump at him with a hug. He grunted when she slammed into him, taking a bite of his sandwich before hugging her back. “I thought you’d left,” she muttered into his shirt, only now noting that he was fully dressed in his button down shirt, pants, and shoes. He had been leaving, and without saying goodbye.

He shrugged, choosing to eat his sandwich rather than say anything to her. She waited him out. Once he was done with the sandwich, he extricated himself from her arms and washed the plate and knife he had used, dried them, and then put them back in their places, all silently.

“Monkey, please say something,” she pleaded, following after him as he left the kitchen and headed toward the living room.

“Like what?” he asked, gathering up his bag from her couch.

“Something, anything. I don’t like the silent treatment.” She pulled at his hand, stopping him in his tracks as he gave a sigh and looked down at her.

“Mayday…” he said softly, before kissing the top of her head. She purred softly, holding the front of his shirt and inhaling his scent of mint chocolate. She sighed happily, inhaling again. She felt his chest vibrate when he chuckled. “What? Are you getting high off of me?” his tone sounded falsely amused, and Amadhay looked up at him, wondering.

“All the time,” she teased, making him look away and remove her hands from his shirt.

“I have to go,” he stated, backing up from her a step.

“Monkey?” she called when he turned from her. Slowly, definitely reluctantly, he turned back to her. “Did I do something wrong?” she asked, frowning.

A flash of something crossed his face before she could decipher it, but then she wasn’t interested in the look because Christein was right in front of her again, pressing her back into the arm of the couch with his body. She took a deep breath when he brushed her hair from her face, making her incredibly aware that her hair was loose and undoubtedly asymmetrical. She probably looked hideous.

“Did you enjoy last night?” he whispered into her ear, leaning down into her.

Pushing away her disgust of her own asymmetrical state, she forced a smile, nodding slowly. “Of course,” she told him, hoping he didn’t notice the waver in her voice. She had enjoyed being with him, even if it had felt so strange to finally get what she had wanted for so long.

“It won’t be happening again,” he told her bluntly, moving back from her.

The stubborn look on his face told her that she wasn’t going to make any headway if she argued right then, so she didn’t. Honestly, she had seen that coming. After all she’d had to do and say to convince him to love her the way she wanted, she’d known there was no way it was going to be as simple as getting him one night to make him stay with her. This was going to be a long battle. A long battle centered in her will and his wavering decision.

“I know,” she said lightly, smiling at him. She knew it looked like a forced smile, but she couldn’t convince her face to make it more realistic.

His smirk didn’t look forced when he moved back to her, hooking his arm around her waist and pulling her back to him. “I’m feeling up for some fun though.”

Amadhay frowned. “But you just said—”

Christein laughed at her, pulling her with him to the stairs. “Not that kind of fun. I really just need your help, so go get dressed.”

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 Christein sat down on Amadhay’s couch, looking toward the stairs, where he assumed she was. Sleeping.

“It’s the middle of the night. Of course she’s asleep,” he muttered to himself, looking to the front door. Amadhay had to be exhausted. He knew that she’d been given mission after mission to keep her busy, and those missions had been anything but simple. Their superiors had been driving her hard to keep her physically away from the Palnokians who had been spotted. If she weren’t sleeping, he could talk to her, because he really needed to. No, he wanted to talk to her, to tell her what was happening.

But he wasn’t supposed to tell her, he wasn’t even supposed to be talking to her. He shouldn’t tell her because it would only make her do something stupid. He stood slowly, favoring his right leg for once, where his right had yet to completely heal itself, and moved toward the front door. Inexplicably, he ended up at the stairs, his feet moving against his common sense.

“I shouldn’t,” he whispered to himself. He still went up the stairs. He was fighting himself every step of the way down her hallway and to her bedroom. He shouldn’t be here. He shouldn’t tell her. He shouldn’t do that to her, shouldn’t bother her. He shouldn’t confuse her anymore than he already had.

He was outside of her bedroom before he knew it, staring into her room, staring at her. He knew that she knew he was there when he saw how tense she was, even though she lay flat on her back on the bed, eyes closed and breathing regular and even. For a moment, seeing that, seeing her, seeing the way she didn’t look like she’d slept in the two weeks since he’d been avoiding her, it all made him consider not going in, leaving and not saying a word.

He knocked on the doorframe, announcing his presence even though they both knew he that knew that she knew that he was there. Standing in the door uncertainly, he waited for her to respond. She slowly sat upright, eyeing him warily even though she gave him a smile. He felt like an asshole at seeing her eye him with more wary mistrust than he had ever seen from her.

“Can I come in?” he asked carefully, trying his hardest not to look away from her.

“I suppose,” she responded, throwing her legs over the side of the bed before patting the space beside her for him to join her.

Noting how tense her movements were, he sat down gingerly. Clearing his throat, he looked away from her. “I’m, uh, leaving tomorrow night. At eight. I just…I wanted to apologize. I shouldn’t have fucked you up like I did. It’s my fault that you think you’re in love with me, and I have to make up for that. So, I’m going to go, and this isn’t the best timing, obviously, but I’m going to try to fix this. Whatever this is with us. And just…you should try to figure yourself out because us? Whatever you think you can have between us? It can’t happen. It won’t happen. Ever. We can’t.”

She was silent for so long that Christein had to look at her. When he did, he moved without thinking, pulling her into his arms. She was shaking, eyes misty but not yet crying as she tried not to say anything. I can’t do this to her. “Mayday, c’mon. I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to—”

“You’re just going to leave me? Just like that?” her voice was broken, so incredibly broken that he cursed himself, Riff, and Atlas all in the same thought. “I’m sorry, Monkey, I’m sorry and I’ll try. But please don’t leave, I’m sorry. I’ll stop, I’ll be better, don’t leave me. Please don’t leave me.”

“I’m just going on a mission,” he said quickly, immediately feeling even worse when he lied to try to make it better. “It’s offshore, but it’s just a mission and I’ll be right back. I’m coming back.”

“I want to go with you,” she whispered, pressing her face into his shirt. “I have to go with you. Don’t leave me here alone, please?”

Christein flinched, gently prying her off of him. “You know you can’t.” He swallowed, choosing to not explain it any better than that. She knew the rules. She knew just as well as he did that she was still limited to on-shore missions to keep her away from Palnoki. It was for her own protection.

She looked up at him with her eyebrows raised high, her eyes a startling sky blue like they used to be. “You’ll come back to me?”

With that one question, Christein lost the self-control he prided himself on having with her. He couldn’t bear lying to her again, so instead he gave her something better. He gave her a bit of his truth. He tilted her head back a little further and leaned down into a kiss. Despite how out of control he felt, despite how warm she was and how good she made him feel, he gave her the gentlest of kisses and then moved back to watch her. “We can’t be together,” he reminded her.

It took a click for her to respond, where her eyes were closed and lips parted just slightly, still pursed as if she were reliving the kiss. When it became obvious that he wasn’t going to kiss her again, her eyes slowly opened and the shock of blue eyes hit him again. She just stared at him for a few breaths before she crawled forward until there was no room left between them. She placed her hands on his chest to gently push him back onto her bed, gently enough that he could resist if he wanted, but by the Goddess, he didn’t want to. Once he was lying down, she crawled forward once more until they were face to face.

“I just want…” she placed a soft kiss to the corner of his mouth, so soft that it was barely a kiss, but it still sent a jolt through Christein’s entire body. “You to try,” she kissed the other corner of his mouth, this time with a bit more pressure. Christein groaned. “Please?” They were so close that he could feel her breath coming in rapidly.

He searched her eyes for a moment, and seeing that innocent blue, he weakly pushed at her. “I can’t,” he said breathlessly, staring at her lips instead, her soft, red-stained lips. They weren’t innocent, they didn’t remind him of her as a child. When he looked at her lips, all he could see was the knowing curve, the stain of red, succubus lipstick, red like the blood she shed.

“Please?” she asked again, her voice so soft that he felt the whisper more than heard it. This time her lips pressed against the corners of his left eye and then she started toward the right eye, his damaged one, when he froze.

“Amadhay, stop,” he ordered weakly, and surprisingly, she did. She sat back on her heels and stared at him with so much want that he couldn’t help himself this time. He reached up and cupped her cheek. Her eyes closing slowly, she pressed her cheek into his hand, letting out a soft purr. Christein couldn’t breathe, staring at her in amazement. She was beautiful, she was perfect and all she wanted was him. All he had to do was take what she was offering.

“Please?” she whispered, not opening her eyes.

“Don’t make me do something I’ll regret,” he warned her, pulling her back down to him. She gasped softly, but quickly rearranged herself so that she was atop him with her face nuzzling into his throat.

“Why regret?” she whispered.

“You know damn well why,” he snapped, but he didn’t pull away from her. He was powerless against her. Her, his little cousin, the little girl he had taught to climb a tree, to identify the different parts of the body, to kill. Except she wasn’t a little girl anymore, was she? She could make her own decisions, and if this was what she wanted, then who was he to go against her? He hated himself for even thinking that. She was too young to really understand, too dependent on him to realize what she really wanted.

“But I don’t,” she responded, pulling back to look at him dead on. “We are no worse than the Queen Ora and King du Kay binding. It’s going to happen, everyone already knows and accepts it. They’re cousins the same as us. So why are we wrong? We’re just as close as they are!”

Christein frowned. “It’s bad, Amadhay. We aren’t royalty. We are both First Family. It is closer to me trying to rut with Kellinan.”

“But it isn’t,” Amadhay argued, taking his hand, “Because I am not Kelly. I am First Family by default, not by blood. If my father had been there when I was born instead of Riff, if Riff hadn’t claimed me, then I wouldn’t be First Family and this would be fine. We aren’t doing anything wrong. Our blood isn’t that close.”

“But it’s close enough.” Christein shook his head and started to get up, but Amadhay didn’t move. “You know it’s close enough. We are practically siblings by law.”

“Court law, but not normal law. I’m cat, you’re lizard. It’s allowed,” she tried.

He shook his head, working hard to gather his wits. “It’s not allowed, Amadhay. I’m your cousin, almost your brother. I’m almost twice your age. And we are Court, so Court laws apply to us.”

“I’m technically dead, so they don’t apply to me.”

“You’re extremely alive right now. Enough people know that you’re alive that soon enough you’re probably going to be going to Court functions again. What then? Will the laws no longer apply?”

“We can get out of Ha’s Region. There aren’t stupid Court laws in Tierdom.”

“Even Nolando and Anne would purposely make laws against this. And considering if you moved to Tierdom, they’d never let you out of their sight, you wouldn’t be able to hide it—don’t try claiming otherwise. I’m pretty sure they’d apply to you even more there.”

“Tell me one bad thing that could happen if we were together,” she demanded, changing tact. Her eyes were red and blazing with enough emotion for him to know that she was serious. “One thing that doesn’t involve laws.”

He gave an aggrieved sigh and laid back down, looking up at the ceiling instead of her. He could fight her if he didn’t look at her, so long as he remembered everything that was wrong with their relationship becoming any more convoluted than it already was. Such as…

After almost three clacks of silence, Amadhay leaned down to him and pressed her head into the crook of his neck. “See? You can’t even think of a reason against us without the law. I mean for Escort’s sake, Monkey, we break the law all the time, for our job. Why can’t we break it for something that will make us happy for once?”

“What if you get pregnant?” he blurted out, cradling her to his chest. As improbable as it seemed it was a possibility. He didn’t know it Rea had ever implanted the blunderlust pregnancy inhibitor into her.

She scoffed and tapped the juncture between her neck and shoulder, where the chip was normally placed. “That’s hardly going to happen,” she stated, nipping at his neck. He gave a low groan before he turned her onto her back, looking down at her once he had her pinned.

“But what if it did?” he asked, needing to make this decision without any of her prompting kisses or bites. Fine, she had the inhibitor implanted into her, but sometimes they malfunctioned, especially when the other partner had a different versions of the inhibitor. Arne Riff had made sure he’d been implanted with an irremovable adult version of the easily removed chip embedded into children experimenting with blunderlust. What if their inhibitors malfunctioned because of that? No one had expected him to have any of the blunderlusting in his bed, so he hadn’t been given the full facts behind the chances there.

“Nothing bad will happen,” she replied reassuringly.

He stared at her, fighting the different parts of him. One part of him definitely wanted to take all of whatever of herself she would give to him. Another part of him wanted to leave right then and there before he could ruin her any more. Another part of him wanted to make her see what she did to him. Another part was disgusted with both of them and what they were thinking of doing.

In the end, he listened to the only voice that mattered,

“Please, Monkey?”


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“I wouldn’t go so far as to say avoiding,” Lizu replied as conversationally as possible, glancing over to the couch where Amadhay was still engrossed in the movie.

“Got company?” the woman asked sweetly, smiling at eser. “Can we join?”

“It’s kind of an invite only weve night,” Lizu replied easily, leaning against esers doorframe. They couldn’t get in without ever allowing them in the wards, but that wasn’t eser worry. Ese knew eser wards were good. No half-pint witch and her muscle man were going to get through. Eser worry was how much noise they were going to make, and how much time ese had left before Amadhay’s curiosity was piqued. Ese glanced at her again and this time she was looking back at eser questioningly. “Just some friends,” ese explained to her. “They wanted to do something. I forgot they were going to come over.”

“Ooh, you have friends?” Amadhay cooed, crawling over to the edge of the couch and leaning over so she could try to see outside. Ese moved to try to cover the whole doorway so she couldn’t see their guests.

“Oh come on,” the blonde practically whistled. “I want to see your twine.”

“It’s a girl. I have to see her. Make sure the competition’s down,” Amadhay teased, getting off of the couch and moving to eser. Her eyes narrowed just slightly when she looked at the two. In an instant, faster than the blink of an eye, her appearance shifted just enough to make her not look like herself, but not enough that the two at the door would be suspicious that she had glamoured herself. Her eyes turned brown and larger. Her lips became even poutier and her lashes grew longer. Her spoors disappeared and her hair became wavy, the curls smoothing down and lengthening to her waist. She thinned just enough that ese would notice, but not enough that the other two would realize.

She looked up at eser accusingly for a moment, before softening her expression to sweet. “Hi,” she said, holding her hand out to the two. “I’m Amadhay.”

“Yori,” the wisp of a woman stated, fluttering her eyelashes and gripping Amadhay’s hand before Lizu could make Amadhay pull her hand back into the ward. Using Amadhay’s hand as a bridge, the woman stepped forward and into the ward. She reached back to the stone mage, taking his hand and the two entered Lizu’s wards.

“Amadhay,” Lizu sighed.

“What?” she asked innocently, looking up at eser.

“Yes, what, Qwuill?” Yori said, handing the food over to Amadhay before turning to eser. “Why haven’t we seen you recently? Mother has been asking for you and your information.”

“I don’t have any,” ese lied, glancing down at Amadhay, who watched with a sweet, confused smile that ese knew was faked. She knew exactly who Yori and Mont were. If ese had to guess, she’d probably watched Christein or Benjym take the two down on missions before, though ese doubted she’d had to sully herself dealing with them with her own hands. Luckily, however, they had no idea who she was. If they had, there would have been fighting already.

“Really?” Yori questioned, raising her pale eyebrows. She turned back to Amadhay, who had somehow put the food down somewhere. She pointedly reached forward and played with Amadhay’s hair. “You’re such a pretty little thing.” She cut her eyes to Lizu, missing the calculating look in Amadhay’s eyes. “I bet you’re fragile too. Easily hurt.”

“Not really,” Amadhay said, taking Yori’s hand by the wrist. “In fact, I tend to hurt others more than I get hurt,” she stated.

Yori stared down at her for a long moment before looking at Lizu. She laughed. “What is this? Your attack poodle?”

“I prefer to think of myself as a bird. A red one. Maybe a robin,” Amadhay said sweetly before breaking Yori’s wrist. It was necessary, ese knew, because Yori used her dominant, left hand for her magic. In fact, ese would go so far as to say without her left hand, she was rather useless.

Mont roared and swung at Amadhay, who easily ducked under his slow moving arm. As his arm swung back around, she caught hold of it and allowed the man’s momentum to swing her right into him. She had to have put all of her weight into her doubled footed kick, because when her bare feet slammed into the stone mage, he rocked back.

All of that happened in under five clicks. Lizu watched her, aware that she wasn’t doing anything in eser favor. If she killed Yori and Mont, the Huron clan would come after eser harder, and they would be after blood instead of just information. If she let them leave, the two would go straight to Mother Sari and tell her that Red Robin was currently with the Qwuill Master, that ese was involved with the girl.

Lizu sighed. Amadhay just didn’t think before she acted.

The girl launched herself from Mont, back to Yori and wrapped her arms around Yori’s head, holding it with her elbows on the taller woman’s shoulders. “Rock man, stop moving. Look at me. Step away from the Qwuill.” Mont did as she said. She gave a fierce smile. “Now. I will not break this lovely woman’s neck if the two of you think you can take a message to your darling boss.” She turned Yori’s neck to the side. “Are you listening to me?” she whispered into Yori’s ear.

Lizu took a step back, from the landing and back toward the couch. Ese leaned against the back of it and watched Amadhay do her thing, hoping that this could work out for eser in some way. Eser mind was moving through different scenarios, trying to think of one that didn’t end with eser dead or being tortured for information on her.

“Good,” Amadhay said. “Now, the message is that my pretty Qwuill Master here? He’s under my protection. He will work for you, but he’s mine. You touch one hair on his head, and I will kill every single one of you, starting with Saria’s sweet little baby boy. Are we understood?”

“We’re clear,” Yori whispered.

“Good.” Amadhay let go. “Now get out of here before I decide that I don’t need both of you to give the message.”

Lizu and Amadhay watched the two flee. Ese felt the ward snap in place just before Amadhay turned to eser. “And you,” she snapped. “The next time someone is roughing you up, you tell me. You may be some all great and powerful wizard, but I’m the brawns of this operation.”

Lizu laughed. Amadhay looked ready to explode on eser, so ese cupped her face, choosing not to correct her terminology and instead focusing on making her less angry with eser. Ese could deal with Mother Sari and her people later. Right now, ese had to deal with eser favorite five-foot-tall kitten full of danger.

“Sweetheart. You’re the brains, brawns, and beauty of this operation.”

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 Amadhay gave a low, husky laugh, watching Lizumeizei run around from one bubbling pot to the smoking pans. He had decided to attempt to make dinner for her, which was becoming the best entertainment he had ever arranged for her, and that included the tickets to the blood-debt tournament he had managed to get them the previous month. But even watching a blood elf take out an overgrown lizard Feral wasn’t comparable to watching Lizumeizei scamper around the kitchen, trying to salvage their dinner. The fish fillets were charcoal by now, the mashed potatoes something closer to the consistency of cotton candy, and the unidentifiable red glop hadn’t been edible since she got there.

“Lizumeizei,” she purred, coming up to the cat-kin’s side. “It’s okay. I didn’t expect you to be good at cooking.”

If anything, that seemed to make the failure worse for the man. “I just wanted to be able to have a nice candle-lit dinner with you.”

The girl held back a snicker. The idea of having a candle-lit dinner with anyone, much less Lizumeizei was unappealing, but the heartfelt attempt was cute. He got points in her book for it. “We can still have dinner. Take-out exists for people like us,” she teased him gently before turning off the fires. She considered doing the clean up, but figured it could wait until later. She took the man she might have called her twine if either of them were interested in labeling their relationship with any type of title past ‘friends’ by the hand and led him into his extravagantly furnished living room. She pulled him onto the couch and curled up with him, allowing the cat of her aelfe to take over and comfort him.

It was strange, she thought, that Lizumeizei was so upset over messing up making dinner. He tended to be cool as a cucumber. She had shown up on his doorstep weeks before Arne Riff had sprung her from Tierdom and he hadn’t even been slightly worried. She had told him that she was going to kill him that first time and he hadn’t even flinched, as if he had known that she wasn’t capable of doing it. He had just invited her in, made her tea, and talked to her for zoots, until she had been forced to go back to the Tierdormo palace so she wouldn’t be caught. That had happened for three weeks, until Arne Riff had taken her back and a week later put her back on active duty. When, after two weeks of no communication, she had appeared on Lizumeizei’s doorstep again, this time bloody and having a hard time with it, the cat-kin had taken her in, made her tea, and talked to her. She still wasn’t sure what she had said to him, but he wouldn’t repeat it, so she knew it had to be bad.

None of that had fazed him, but ruining a dinner that he had no reason to cook in the first place had? Something had to be going on that she wasn’t aware of, but she didn’t question him. Instead, she curled up with him on the couch, nuzzling her face into the crook of his neck when he curled up against her, his tawny cat tail wrapping securely around her waist.

“I’m up for trying some Over the Water cuisine, how about you?” Lizumeizei asked after about fifteen clacks of the two of them silently cuddling. Amadhay blinked rapidly a few times, having almost been deep in a cat nap. She gave a wide yawn before rubbing the top of her head against Lizumeizei’s neck. Lizumeizei purred.

“What was that?” she asked, stretching her arms out now that he seemed to be back into his normal headspace. It was rare that Lizumeizei was the one who needed cuddles, even though he was the more feline of the two of them. She wouldn’t pry just yet, but Amadhay was determined to find out what was occupying her friend’s mind so much that he was in a bothered state.

“Over the Water? I know a few good places that deliver.”

He wanted to get delivery? That was new. While Lizumeizei wasn’t completely against delivered food, (she had convinced him to get it a few different times by using her patented kitten eyes) he, as a rule, didn’t suggest it himself, preferring for them to go out or to pick up the food and carry it out themselves. She didn’t think it was a security thing, considering his house had some of the very best wards she had ever seen, and that was including the blood wards Ribbon had used to keep her in her room when the Palnoki had first captured her. But him not wanting to go out might be.

“Lizumeizei Qwuilleran,” she purred his full name against his furry cat ear, softly enough to be a whisper against his skin.

“Not hungry?”  he asked, tilting his head back so that he could look into her face. He had a knowing grin on his face, but it slipped off as he took in her expression. “What?” he asked, his tone going bland almost immediately. It was his business voice, which told her that she had failed at being innocent and was, instead, giving him a face that screamed out ‘Danger be this way!’

She sighed and sat up, noting that his tail didn’t move from her waist even when he sat up as well. “What’s going on? You’re acting strange.”

He shook his head, his face still perfectly blank. “Nothing that concerns you.” His normal smile cracked the blank mask and he petted her hand reassuringly. “Nothing for you to worry about. I promise.”

She frowned, but decided to let it drop. She didn’t talk about work with him, so she gave him the same courtesy. Even when she was extremely curious, she didn’t push him because she had learned that sometimes it was easier not to know everything about the people you were with. Atlas had taught her that.

“So, Over the Water?” he suggested again, giving her a suggestive smile.

She rolled her eyes. “Yeah, I could go for some Over the Water food.”

“Okay, so should I surprise you again or do you have something in mind today?” Lizumeizei asked, pulling her up off of the couch and back toward the kitchen.

She shrugged, knowing that he enjoyed it when she let him order for her. “Surprise me,” she said. She didn’t really know enough about Over the Water food to make an educated choice on what she’d want anyway, and Lizumeizei didn’t keep spare menus around. And considering their dates were strictly off the datastream except in terms of ordering food, she couldn’t even check a search engine on her DS to try and seem like she knew what she wanted.

He gave a soft exhale that Amadhay couldn’t help but think sounded more like relief than happiness. Once they were in the kitchen, he rolled up the sleeves of his expensive teal shirt and started working on cleaning up. Amadhay paused, trying to decide if she was enough of a guest to not help him out, but finally decided that clean up would go quicker with her helping. The faster clean up went, the faster they could order food. She was starving.

“So what have you been up to?” Lizumeizei asked, scraping fish remains from his pan. “You never did tell me why you cancelled last week.”

“Oh,” she stated, focusing on trying to get the red stuff out of his small pot. “There was a mission. Christein got really hurt. I had to heal him,” she said, making it obvious that she wasn’t going any deeper in depth there. She had come here to get her mind off of Christein, not to mope about him some more. He had made his decision, so she had to live with it. She had Lizumeizei. What did she want with her cousin anyway? Christein was every kind of fucked up and she was just as bad for wanting him. Lizumeizei didn’t have intimacy issues, like Christein did. And at least with Lizumeizei, she didn’t have to worry about her entire family—the ones that knew she was alive, anyway, which seemed to keep growing—having big fits and fusses about being with him. Arne Riff would be against it, but he was against everything that didn’t benefit him.

Why was she even comparing Christein and Lizumeizei? It wasn’t like she was going to bind to either of them. She was going to bind to some upstart clan leader Arne Riff wanted to join with, just as sure as Hynnkel was going to bind to Queen Fallora and King du Kay, Amaya was going to bind to the Prince du Kay, and Kelly was going to be bound to Lord Salazaen Skouras. It was all arranged already. She knew that. They all knew that. This was just her playing around before she was tied down, taking advantage of her blunderlust years—after all, she had started late. It was all it could be.

“Is that all that’s been going on with you?” Lizumeizei asked, suddenly behind her, rubbing her shoulders. “Because you don’t seem like you’re here tonight.”

“I’m here,” she immediately countered, turning to him and pressing a quick kiss to his lips. “I’m completely here. Just…a little thoughtful.”

“About what?” he asked, his green eyes boring into her red ones. She shrugged, hip bumping him so that he would move. She was going to try hot water on the red mess to see if that would get it out of the pot. Otherwise, she was going to have to toss the pot. He followed her, petting her hair gently. His hands were still wet, so she shouldered him away. Getting her hair wet only ever made it defy gravity. “You sure you don’t want to talk about it?”

She shrugged again. “It’s nothing major,” she lied. “It’s just both Christein and Benjy have been avoiding me. Well, I know Monkey has. I just haven’t seen Benjy in a week or two, and it’s weird.”

“You were complaining last month that he was following you like a lost puppy since you rutted with him,” Lizumeizei pointed out.

“I know. I just didn’t want him to disappear on me altogether. He is my friend, even if I don’t like him that way. I like being around him.”

Lizumeizei didn’t say anything for a few clacks, and Amadhay looked up from the mess of red gunk, which was trying to come out of the pot. He was staring at her with an expression she wasn’t sure how to decipher. When he realized she was looking at him, he gave her a smile.

“So, Over the Water. I’ll call it in,” he said, leaving her alone in the kitchen with the pot of something.

Trying to ignore his strangeness, she gave the pot a hesitant sniff. It didn’t smell like anything she would have wanted in her stomach, so she assumed it was probably some strange cuisine from Over the Water, where he was from. They had some strange food in his area. With a loud plop, the gunk flew out of the pot and onto the ceiling. She hadn’t even touched it.

She stared up at it. “What the…” she just kept staring at it. It didn’t move, just stayed a disgusting blob of red on the ceiling. She was considering getting a stool and the broom to poke at it when Lizumeizei came back into the kitchen, five clacks later.

“Alright, food will be here in about thirty clacks. I have a movie ready for us if…you…” he paused, but Amadhay didn’t look away from the blob. “What are you looking at?” he asked. A click later, he said, “Ah.”

“Yeah, um, I don’t think it’s dead,” Amadhay stated.

“Uh huh, um, Amadhay, could you move from under it?”

“Are you about to set it on a blaze of glory?” she asked, still not able to take her eyes from it.

“Well, I’d like to make it stop paralyzing you first.”

She started to argue that she wasn’t paralyzed, but now that she tried, she found that she honestly couldn’t look from the glop. She couldn’t move. She was frozen in her spot, staring up at it.

“That’s what I thought,” she heard Lizumeizei mutter. Also, she wasn’t positive, but she thought she might have seen the glop get bigger now that Lizumeizei was in the room.

“Lizumeizei, you might want to leave,” she said.

“Can’t. If I do, it’s probably going to eat you.”

“What deep water pit were you trying to feed me?” she demanded.

“I didn’t cook that. I don’t know where that came from.”

“Oh goodie.” She heard Lizumeizei moving closer to her, and knew when he had to be close because the blob began to move. “Lizumeizei. Leave.”

“If I move any faster, it will only follow me.”

“Who did you piss off?” she demanded.

“Oh you know, everyone.” A fireball grazed her face, slamming into the creature on the ceiling. The red became blistered, but it didn’t die. And it didn’t let go of Amadhay.

“I’m going to kick your ass after you kill this thing. You know that, right?”

“I’m sure that will be the first on your list of things to do,” Lizumeizei muttered. The blob gave a screech and then it launched itself off of the ceiling and at Lizumeizei. The moment it let go of the ceiling, it let go of Amadhay. Immediately, she activated her Gift and moved Lizumeizei out of the way. It hurt not giving her body the proper prep before jumping into it.

She dropped her Gift once Lizumeizei was out of the way, but stupidly stared at the glop again. “I think I’m stuck again,” she told Lizumeizei, who she had moved out of the kitchen. She was now in the doorway of the kitchen. The only way that thing was going to get to Lizumeizei was through her. “So, any bright ideas, my darling warlock?”

“I’m a Qwuill and you know it,” he stated, moving close behind her. She felt his tail curl around her. “I’m going to move you. It will attack me, let go of you, and you’re going to do a diamond orb.”

“I don’t know how.”

“An amber orb, then.”

“An amber orb won’t help you if it eats you,” Amadhay snapped.

“I believe in you. You can do it fast enough to keep that from devouring me.”

“New plan,” Amadhay said, narrowing her eyes as the thing began to bubble. “You run and pull me with you. It’ll have to let go to follow us. I’ll do amber orb and you do diamond.”

“It will catch me before I can do a diamond orb, Amadhay.”

“What can you do quickly? Actually don’t tell me, just do it now. It’s about to jump me.”

Amadhay couldn’t see what the cat-kin was doing behind her, but she could see the blob lengthening. It was turning into something. She felt magic at her back and in her peripheral vision, she could see the green of an emerald orb. She wasn’t sure how much good that would do with an amber orb. Not for the first time, she wished that someone would teach her a diamond orb. This would all be over if she knew how to do the most powerful of natural orbs.

She was seeing fangs. There were very large fangs and a protruding jaw to hold said fangs. Beady eyes were forming above the jaw. No nose, but very large horns on the head. How on Resor was this thing coming together from that tiny thing in the pot?

Lizumeizei tossed his emerald orb and she could feel him already starting on a new orb. The creature slammed into the kitchen sink and let go of Amadhay. She quickly moved her hands in the familiar motions of the amber orb as quickly as she could without using her Gift. It hurt too much to use it, so unless it was absolutely necessary, she wasn’t going to. She loosed the amber orb and it sunk right into the creature’s face, followed closely by a sapphire orb. Lizumeizei took her hands and helped her form the correct hand movements, whispering into her ear a few nonsense words that she repeated without thought.

A gleaming, glittering ball of purple and silver shone in her hands, an orb she had never seen before. The creature jumped at them. Lizumeizei interlaced his finger with hers and pulled her hands apart. The ball grew larger. She could feel a strain in Lizumeizei and the push of her own power and then he slapped their hands together in a loud clap.

The orb shot right out of their hands and into the creature’s mouth. It swallowed and slammed into the two of them, reopening its mouth to bite them. Amadhay kicked with all of her strength, knocking the oversized creature back enough for Lizumeizei to scramble from underneath her. She jumped on top of it before it could go after the cat-kin and gripped the creature by its lower fangs, ignoring the slippery feeling of its slobber, wondering what good that strange orb had been.

As soon as she thought that, the creature seemed to expand. It whined, shaking her off of it with a few powerful movements. And then it blew up. She closed her eyes and winced, readying herself to be covered in beast innards, but felt nothing. She opened her eyes when Lizumeizei nudged her on his way past her. Where the beast had been, was once again the red glop of disgusting. She watched as Lizumeizei muttered a few words of incantation too fast for her to catch, touch the glop, and then it just disappeared. She hoped he sent it far away, and not just to his lab upstairs so that he could check it out.

Lizumeizei turned back to her, the silver of his magic flaring in his eyes from overuse. “Now, where were we?”

“I think this is the part where I kick your ass?” Amadhay suggested, rubbing monster slobber off of her hands and onto his carpet before taking his hand and allowing him to help her up.

“I think food should be here soon,” he added, giving her a grin.

She sighed. “I don’t think I’m hungry anymore.”

“Oh come on, I promise this food will be dead when we get it.” He wiped sweat off of his forehead before running his fingers over the honey-colored braid, pulling it to lay on his chest rather than behind his shoulders. He kissed the corner of her mouth before sitting on the couch and holding his arm out in invitation for her to curl up beside him. “And it’s your favorite movie…”

She sighed again, but was unable to stay irritated with him when the first notes of her favorite movie hit her ears. He was the only one she felt comfortable watching it with, and she really had had the worst past weeks. She deserved some time just relaxing with her catboy, watching a sappy, silly romantic musical. She curled up next to him just as the lead female opened her mouth to sing about creating the world.

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Christein dropped Amadhay on her couch, flopping down to sit beside her before she could try to clamber onto his back again. She giggled, glad to have her old relationship with him back. All it had taken was a heart-to-heart about their illnesses and six successful missions with no sign of the Wonder Girls and Co. In the four days since their talk, she found she couldn’t stop thinking about how she had almost blurted out her secret to Christein.

She curled up at his side, ignoring his sigh because he was petting her hair.

“You never did finish your sentence,” he told her, making her look up at him questioningly.

“Which one?” she quipped. “You interrupt me a lot.”

He poked her in the side and she got off of him so they could look each other in the face while talking. He had a cut on his lip and she wondered how long it would take for it to heal. It had already stopped swelling and bleeding, so she would wager it would completely disappear within a few more clacks.

“You know, when we were talking about…being sick. You were listing reasons you didn’t want me to die and just kind of let it go.”

She flushed and looked away from him. He couldn’t possibly be going there. She swallowed, getting up and going to the kitchen. “I’m not sure I remember what you’re talking about,” she tried, pulling a bottle of water from her fridge.

When she closed it, Christein was behind her, having followed behind her. “Alright,” Christein said. For a moment she thought he was going to let it go. “You started with ‘Maybe because I,’ and didn’t finish. What were you going to say?”

She tapped her foot nervously. “Um. I guess I just…lost my train of thought?” she suggested.

He frowned at her and she could tell that he was almost to believing her, but the hurt in his expression made her think that maybe that wouldn’t be the best thing. “Liar,” he accused scowling.

She shrugged gracefully, turning her head from him. “I just couldn’t think of another reason,” she claimed.

The hurt that flickered across his face told her that she had said the worst thing possible. What was worse was that she had known that she was saying the wrong thing even as the words left her lips. She knew how sensitive Christein was to being wanted and needed, how much it bothered him that most of their family wouldn’t mind too much if he were just to die or disappear without a trace. She wasn’t one of them, but she had certainly just pretended to be.

That was never okay.

He stepped back from her and shook his head before turning to leave. “I’ve got things to do. See you later.”

She watched his back as he retreated. Biting her lip to keep herself from saying anything, she followed after him until he made it to the door. It was either let it lie or tell the secret and the secret was bigger than letting him have slightly hurt feelings for the few clacks it would take him to recognize that she was lying. Or at least, that’s what she thought, until she saw that he was actually leaving. He truly thought that she didn’t care about him enough to think up more than three paltry reasons she would care if he died.

“Maybe because I love you!” she shouted as his hand touched the doorknob. He froze.

His head tilted to the side and he looked back at her, but only slightly, turning the right side of his face to her so that his hair was obscuring her vision of his expression. “I’m…sorry. What did you say?” he asked with a chuckle, as if he had heard her wrong.

She bit her lip and didn’t speak until he fully turned and looked at her. His face was contorted in confusion, as if he honestly couldn’t believe what she had said. She took a deep breath to steady herself. She had said it. The words were out. It was no longer a secret. It couldn’t hurt to say it again. Her eyes flickered down and then back up to his face.

“I said…that…I love you. I would care if you died because I love you. Am in love with you. It’s not me loving my cousin. It’s me loving you,” she told him in a much softer tone this time. She gave him a small, hopeful smile. She didn’t know what she expected because she knew a return exclamation of love was hardly the response her cousin was likely to give her. Still, she didn’t expect the one she got.

He swallowed hard, shaking his head. “You’re sick, Amadhay, you need help.”

Her breath caught in her chest as he turned from her and this time he did leave. She didn’t move, didn’t try to stop him. She simply closed her eyes, trying not to break down.

The door slammed shut between them.

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Christein woke up with no idea where he was. He was tired and confused and seeing his little cousin lying on top of him only made it worse. The last thing he remembered was fighting Hynnkel. He looked down to try to determine if that had been a nightmare or real, but he couldn’t get past his shirt being torn open. What had happened?

He sat up carefully, holding her against him gently. He frowned. It wasn’t like her to sleep through someone touching her.

“Amadhay?” he whispered to no response. “Amadhay? Wake up.”

She looked peaceful. He couldn’t remember the last time he had slept as peacefully as it seemed she was. He had to wonder how she did it. He had nightmares every night. He dreamed of the people he’d hurt for Arne Riff. He dreamed of his weakness, of not being able to keep Amadhay safe. He dreamed of his rejection. Then again, she didn’t have those problems. She didn’t share his memories or his failure. Maybe it was easier for her to sleep because she didn’t know what it felt like to be ruined.

Her entire body cringed, and then she was limp, her head lolling back as if she had no bones in her neck.

“Amadhay? Wake up. Please?” he pleaded, sitting her up into his arms so that he could see her face. She cringed again but this time, her hands moved, clutching for someone. Black shot off of her, encompassing Christein.

Christein froze instantly, panic lancing through him as he realized he no longer had his cousin in his arms. He could see something, something small. It was her, he realized with only the slightest relief. She lay curled up in a small ball, her hands covering her ears as if she were trying to block some noise out. She was scared. He couldn’t see what she was frightened of, only that she was. It was a tight fit where she was.

He was suddenly surrounded by light. He glanced down and saw his hands were smaller, much smaller. He was immediately sure that he knew where he was. He could feel Amadhay’s fear. It was overpowering. She couldn’t talk, couldn’t cry, couldn’t run or attack. She couldn’t do anything. She was at the mercy of the small room. It was closing in on her.

Then Christein was himself again, seeing baby Amadhay for the first time. Her tiny face was so scrunched up. Her hands were reaching out though, it seemed, to him.

And then it was gone. A new scene took its place. This time Christein knew what it was immediately. Three-year-old Amadhay pulled on his tail “Monkey!” she exclaimed happily. Just like then, he smiled and tried to correct her, but she was stubborn. “Monkey,” she decided, petting his tail. “Pretty Monkey.” He was smiling at her when it changed again.

Now his smile dropped off of his face when he was looking into the face of his father. He glanced down and sure enough there was a little Amadhay, staring in something between fear and anger. Riff backhanded Christein, making his head smack against the wall much too hard.

“Leave him alone!” cried the brave little girl right before she bit Riff’s leg hard enough to make the man scream. She dashed away to get to Christein. Christein tried to reach her before his father did, but as always he was too late and the little girl was grabbed away from him and shaken.

The image changed again, but this time it wasn’t a memory of a time long ago. This was only six years ago and a day he would never forget. He was leaning against a wall, smirking. He bopped the nine-year-old’s nose, which she responded to by punching him. When he tickled her, she laughed until Riff had entered the room with a man, his knot, and their son who was only a few years younger than Amadhay. Riff ordered her to kill them all. Amadhay had looked to him for guidance, for protection, but all he could do was shrug. He shrugged and handed Amadhay a knife. She had looked at him, her big blue eyes pleading, but he had looked away.

This time when the image shifted, Christein was back on the bed, his bare chest heaving and eyes wide. He let go of Amadhay and made a dash out of the room, his hand over his mouth. He made it to a bathroom just in time. As soon as he was in front of the toilet, he threw up everything in his stomach. Staring at the blood swirling down the drain as he flushed the toilet, he tried not to think of the memories Amadhay had just forced him to relive.

He went back to her bedroom and sat on the edge of the bed, putting his head in his hands. He was sick of missions that ended with him regenerating. He was so sick of feeling like he’d let Amadhay down. And he was sick to death of his brother. He opened his eyes when Amadhay made a pained sound. He started when her body shuddered violently on the bed.

He launched himself across the room. “Amadhay, hey!” he started shaking her in hopes she would wake up. “Wake the fuck up!”

Her eyes snapped open. “Monkey?” she asked, frowning. There was a strong confusion in her gaze until everything seemed to fall into place.

He hugged her tightly. “Don’t do that!” he yelled at her, making her confused again. “What in the Water is wrong with you?”

She shook her head in confusion. “Do what?” she asked, though she didn’t move from his hug. “Monkey, are you alright?”

“You’re sick, Amadhay, you need help.” Amadhay tensed when he said those words. He wondered what she thought he meant, but he continued before she could say anything. “You weren’t waking up. You were having seizures.” He pulled her even closer, resting his head on hers.

Amadhay swallowed. Christein enjoyed having his cousin in his arms. She closed her eyes and he simply enjoyed the comfort he felt at knowing she was safe with him. “It’s nothing to worry about.”

Christein closed his eyes too, feeling sick again, but this time it wasn’t a physical feeling. “But does it happen often?” he whispered.

Amadhay shrugged before she pressed her cheek against his chest. “Depends on what you call often,” she admitted. “You okay?” she asked him softly, looking up at him.

Christein opened his eyes slowly and looked down at her for a long moment. He saw the way she was looking at him with those big eyes and couldn’t help but remember when they were blue and hopeful. Back before he had failed her the first time. He let go of her and pushed her off of him gently. He picked his belt up off of the floor and started putting it on and re-buttoning the few buttons left on his shirt, completely ignoring her latter question.

“Do you have any food here?” he asked, looking around her room.

“Aw, Monkey,” she pouted instead of pushing the subject. “Why’d you hafta get dressed? I was enjoying the view,” she teased him.

When he gave her a less than amused look, she gave a small sigh before smiling at him. She edged off of her bed and dropped to her feet, tugging down the same shorts she’d been wearing the previous day. Both of them were very much aware of how much skin she was showing in her tiny shorts and torn tank top. Hs eyes were locked on the curve of her waist, where her shirt was so torn that it hardly covered anything and her sandy skin was stained with blood that he hoped was his. He should have told her to change and shower, but Christein chose not to say anything when she grabbed his hand.

“It’s my place, Monkey. ‘course there’s food. There’ll always be food for you here,” she told him. He thought about asking her why she would put it that way.

“What do you have?” he asked instead, smiling as he followed her. He didn’t want to give her any reason to decide against giving him food all the time.

“Dunno,” she responded after a moment of thought, shrugging her shoulders. “I buy whatever and throw it out when it gets bad.” She let go of him and gestured at the fridge.

He laughed uneasily, wondering what she ate then. “Works for me. Chances are you’ll have something I’ll eat. You know how I’m a picky eater.”

She nodded and shoved him toward the fridge. “Take what you want,” she ordered, settling herself on the dining table rather than one of her seats. She watched him.

Christein frowned when he opened the fridge. “Not much,” he stated.

Looking over his shoulder, she sighed. “Tricksy fridgey,” she muttered before hopping off of the table. She pushed Christein to the side and closed the fridge. Then she reopened it to reveal it to be much fuller than before. “There. That’s better, wouldn’t you say?” she asked him with a grin.

He blinked at her. “How did you do that?’ he asked warily.

She grinned. “My little secret,” she answered before hopping back onto the tabletop.

Instead of wondering why Amadhay’s fridge had an illusion on it, he listened to his stomach when it growled. Christein took out pita bread, cheese, and ham before sitting in one of the seats opposite to her. He made a sandwich, well aware that she was watching him with more worry than he wanted from her.

He kissed her cheek. “Thank you,” he told her sweetly before starting to eat.

She sighed dramatically. “You only like me when you’re getting something from me,” she accused, turning her back on him so that he wouldn’t see the expression on her face. But even without seeing her expression, he could tell that she meant what was supposed to be a joke.

He supposed he deserved that, given the way he had treated her since she had told him about her time with the Palnoki. She’d had the chance to get way from all of this, two chances in fact, and she had just given them up. It pissed him off, especially since she kept blaming him for her decisions, kept saying that she couldn’t keep him safe if she were with the Palnoki or hidden and safe with Nolando. He didn’t need her to keep him safe. It should’ve been the other way around. He should have shielded her from his father’s ambition. If he had, she wouldn’t have been dealing with the horrible things she had to do to survive the life she was living.

“Not true,” he told her, leaning forward until he could hook her side and drag her back across the table, to him. She didn’t make it easy, giving him absolutely no help, but it didn’t stop him. He pressed his face against her side comfortingly, smirking when he felt her relax at his touch. “I like you all the time.”

“Liar,” she muttered, still trying her hardest not to look at him.

Christein stretched upwards and stood. Where they had been closer to the same height with them both seated at different levels, he now towered over her again. He pulled her to him so that he could hug her from behind and she all but melted. He thought about all the things he wanted to say to her, but didn’t.

“What about something to drink?” he asked, before adding jokingly. “Got any alcohol?”

She smiled, nodding her head. “Yup, cupboard next to the fridge,” she told him.

He raised an eyebrow at her. “What kind?” he asked, before finishing his sandwich.

“Dunno,” she answered evasively. She shrugged, tucking hair behind her ear in an action Christein knew meant that she wasn’t telling him something. “I just buy stuff. I dunno what I buy,” she lied to him.

He faked a laugh and let go of her, moving to the cabinet. Opening it, he was vaguely surprised by the sheer variety of alcoholic drinks the 15-year-old had stashed in her place. He wasn’t even aware that she drank outside of the court functions. Actually, he was almost positive that she didn’t drink, including at the court functions. Alcohol bothered her Gift, which he knew from the one time he’d convinced her to take a swig of rose wine with the celebratory meal he and Ben had made for her after her induction into the Phoegani three years ago. So why did she have so much?

Why did she have so much of everything?

“You’re so lucky,” he whispered, just coming to terms with the sheer magnitude of it all. Life seemed to be falling into place for her just as it was falling apart for him. “You get your own place, your own life…everything.” He clenched his fists, staring at her drinks. They were all unopened and most were either gingerbread or peppermint flavored. He couldn’t help but wonder why she was stockpiling alcohol. They weren’t even good for cleaning or burning, only drinking.

“Yeah, if you say so,” she muttered. She crossed her arms over her chest, looking younger than she had in quite some time.

He looked back at her for a long moment, frowning. Silently, he grabbed one of the unopened peppermint vodka bottles and closed the cabinets, moving to her side. He uneasily sat on the table beside her, watching as she gave him a weary smile. “What’s wrong?” he asked softly.

“What do you mean?” she asked with wide eyes, faking another smile. This one slipped off of her face quickly when he didn’t buy it.

Christein took a long swig of the alcohol, making a face at the burn. She was hiding something from him and he would admit that it bothered him. She had never bothered to hide anything from him before he had failed her and the Palnoki had taken her. He couldn’t help but worry that she had lost her faith in him.

He sighed, shaking his worries off and deciding that getting her to open up required regaining her trust. He had never thought that he could lose it. “If I tell you what’s wrong with me, will you tell me what’s wrong with you?”

He stared at her as she stared at him, a strangely calculating expression crossing her face. It disappeared and then she was sitting on his lap, looking much too young. “Go ahead,” she urged him.

He wondered if she knew what she did to him. Deciding that she couldn’t, that he was the only fucked up one, he took another long swig of the alcohol before handing the bottle to her. She gave it an experimental sniff before setting it away from them as he leaned back to sprawl on the table. She stayed on his lap.

“I’m sick,” he said softly.

“Sick how?” she immediately countered. She looked like she was considering lying down with him, but stayed sitting upright.

“Sick as in I don’t know how many more times my body will heal before just shutting down. Sick as in my body is fighting me every moment of the day. I can hardly eat anything without being sick. I’m barely sleeping anymore. Sick…just sick, Mayday.” He finished it with a self-mocking smile and a shrug.

He got a kind of sick pleasure from watching her eyes widen. If he didn’t know her better, hadn’t known that she hadn’t truly cried since she was eight, he would have thought the sheen to her eyes was her holding back tears. “Sick as in…death?” she asked falteringly.

He shrugged again as if it didn’t matter. “Don’t know. They won’t tell me.” Both of them knew that ‘they’ meant their superiors in the Phoegani such as his father. “I’m just sick. I’ve been thinking that maybe…” he trailed off and glanced at her and quickly closed his eyes. She looked so young, younger than she had in years, actually. Her looking that young is what kept him from continuing.

She didn’t understand that he was doing it for her. “No, maybe what?” she demanded, leaning forward so their faces were closer.

His eyes snapped open, willing her to move back even though he didn’t want her to. “None of your damn business,” he snapped. That made her sit up slowly. “Why should you care if I live or die?” he spat nastily, knowing that it was a low blow and completely unfair to her, but still needing to hear the answer.

Amadhay scoffed, dropping off the table. “I don’t know. Why should I care?” she responded sarcastically, turning her back on him. “Maybe because you’re the only one in our family who doesn’t either think I’m dead, want me dead, or try to run my life for me. Maybe because you’re one of the few people who at least pretends to care about me.” She abruptly turned back to him. He eyed her warily, though he didn’t sit up. “Maybe because you’re my best friend or because I don’t want you to die because I can’t imagine my life without you. Maybe because I—” she cut herself off abruptly, avoiding looking at him now. “Nevermind,” she said, turning away to leave the room.

Christein sat up, his arm reaching out fully to grip her arm. “Now hold up one damn clack!” he exclaimed, scrambling for purchase. “We made a deal,” he reminded her, knowing that she always tried to hold to her promises. Her word was her bond. “What’s wrong with you?”

She scoffed. “You couldn’t tell?” she sneered. “Something keeps attacking me in my sleep. Food is unappealing. I’m tired all the time because I have to keep using my gift to keep myself from being killed and none of the energy is coming back to me.” She paused and took a breath, still facing away from him. “And I don’t know if you noticed, but I was kidnapped right from my home, in broad daylight, by our worst enemy and held captive for six months. Since then, I’ve failed more missions than I have in my life. My Gift is getting harder to use the more exhausted I get and my magic is practically running on ebbs nowadays.” He chose not to mention that her ebbs was still more power than most people held in their entire bodies. She wasn’t finished yet.

She jerked herself from him. “And despite getting this nice little house all to myself as an apology for letting me get kidnapped right on base, I feel really alone. I feel like they shoved me here so that when Atlas decides he wants me again, he can just come. He sends me gifts, Monkey. He knows I’m here. I get notes from him in my bed.” She was shaking.

That made him jump off of her table and hold her close. “That bastard isn’t going to get you again, Mayday. I swear.”

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 Amadhay yelped in pain as she landed her and Christein in her bed, in her home. She heard him gasp, but the searing pain in her back preoccupied her for the moment. She tried to remove the arrow from her back, but only succeeded in breaking the shaft.

“Fuzz!” she cursed, her breathing harsh as she stripped off her jacket. She looked down at Christein in time to see his head fall and eyes roll back in silence. He went limp and her eyes widened, entirely forgetting about the arrow still partially in her back. Her pain didn’t matter anymore.

She straddled him, ripping his shirt open. The buttons on his black button down shirt flew across the room as she ripped it wider. She tugged his belt off and unbuttoned the top button of his pants to reveal the full wound. Finally, her scrambling got her through to feel the bare skin of her cousin’s chest. She muttered incantation words quickly before placing her hands right above his gaping wound, coating her hands in his blood. For a moment she faltered, Indigo’s image flashing before her eyes.

She took a deep, unnecessary breath before continuing. She had failed Indigo, but she wasn’t going to fail Christein. She would never fail again. No one she loved would die in her arms. Never again.

When the words were done and a sheet of red, black, and purple energy hung off of her, she placed her lips to the base of his neck. The purple of her magic mingled with the brown of his, swirling between the two of them while the black of the ancient spell and red of healing magic coated their skin. She couldn’t see anything but Christein. It was only the two of them, just her skin to his, his wounds to her body.

Through that position, she transferred healing energy between their bodies so that it would work on them both. She felt the pain of his wound and knew that, had he been awake, he would be feeling the wound on her back. The pain throbbed harder and harder even as it was healing. She passed out atop him.

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Amadhay lay in the bed that Anne had given her for the duration of her stay.

 Nolando, Christein, and Anne were still debating over where she would stay and who would know. Christein had, when the two of them had had a moment alone together told her that he hadn’t told anyone that he’d heard from her. If she wanted, she could live under the radar from both Palnoki and the Phoegani. She had the choice that Atlas had been trying to force onto her for six months. She could completely cut ties with everything to do with the Phoegani.

But she couldn’t. She played with the chip, turning it over and over in her hand. She hadn’t yet told Christein about the chip or the Palnoki’s plans. There hadn’t been time. Anne and Nolando were big on not leaving the two of them alone, though for the life of her, Amadhay couldn’t understand why. She understood that they didn’t like Monkey too much, but she did. She loved him. Didn’t what she want have any kind of bearing?

Then again, it seemed her wants weren’t being factored into anything. She was still just a child in their eyes. She hadn’t been a child for a long time. She’d had to grow up quickly under Arne Riff’s tutelage. A child didn’t last long as an assassin, they were too weak-willed. A woman did because a woman could do her job and not flinch. Amadhay was a woman and she hated that her family didn’t recognize that.

No, she wasn’t the court appointed majority age of 19 or the standard aelfe majority age of 23, but she was more of an adult than most aelfe that were. She had seen more hardship and made more mature decisions in the past few weeks than most people did in years. She had killed her best friend, her lover, her only true equal. She had held the only truly pure and innocent person in her life, the only person who truly believed she could be good as he bled out on her lap. She had been betrayed by people she loved. She had nearly died, had died a little in some ways. She had even forced herself to get over her fears of horses and flying to get away.

She could make her own decisions.

She closed her hand around the chip, staring at nothing. Still, she wasn’t sure that she wanted to make this decision. Life would be so much easier if Nolando would just decide that she was staying there, if Monkey covered for her with the Phoegani. She could have a relatively easy life. She’d still have to hide, but she was sure that Nolando would smooth over the situation with Amaya and hiding wouldn’t be as important, aside to shield her from the Phoegani and Palnoki. She could have her family again. She wouldn’t have to kill. She could just be Amadhay. Atlas would be happy.

But she wouldn’t be.

She wanted to see Benjy again, even if that meant going back to the Phoegani. She wanted to question Rea about her healing practices, to see if they were truly friends. She wanted to keep Monkey and Benjy safe from the Palnoki. She wanted to keep Amaya safe from the Palnoki. It was her duty. She owed it to her sister, after having betrayed her more than once.

She owed the world to keep the Heralds out of Atlas’ hands. She may have loved him, but she knew he wasn’t nearly as sane as he sometimes seemed. He may have wanted her and might still refuse to hurt her, but the rest of the world? Everyone he didn’t want was seen as an acceptable expense. Even Arne Riff wasn’t that bad. He might see many people as expendable, but even he wouldn’t willingly kill as many people as she knew Atlas was probably going to. Atlas only cared about his handful. Arne Riff cared about power and wanted people there to rule over. Atlas only wanted what he couldn’t have and damn the consequences.

She couldn’t let him win. She wouldn’t let him win, not after everything he’d done to her, had planned to do to those she loved, had forced her to do. No, she wasn’t going to let him win, especially not with the fate of the world practically in his hands. And not only their world…

“What kind of things do you want?”

“World domination. The Heralds. Interplanetary exploration and then domination. You.”

She turned onto her stomach, pressing her face into the pillows. He’d listed her among conquests he wanted. She wasn’t going to be a conquest and she wasn’t going to let him have those other conquests either. She would stop him, no matter the cost. She had already forfeited her right to remain neutral the moment she had decided in the barn, the moment she had decided that having a life with Ribbon, that Ribbon’s life was less important than the good of the entire world. She’d chosen her side. She had finally made her own decision. Atlas would be proud.

So what she could do if she stayed with Nolando was useless speculation, because she couldn’t. She wasn’t sure how she was going to do it, but she was going to have to convince Nolando to give her over to Christein and then convince Christein to let her go back to the Phoegani. She didn’t want to, but she had a feeling that she was going to have to involve Arne Riff. He could force their hands. He’d want her back. She was an even better asset now that she knew the Palnoki.

Her fingers touched something underneath the pillow. Sitting up, she sat the chip onto her lap and picked the pillow up. Laying there, right where her head had been, was an unmarked, sealed envelope. She paused for a moment, wondering who it was for, and knowing that she should give it to one of the maids, but unable to fight her curiosity.

She opened the envelope. She pulled out the one slip of paper. She read it. She stared at it. She dropped it onto her lap and looked inside the envelope. Turning it upside down, she shook it until the last content fell into her hand.

It was her hair ribbon. The ribbon. It had blood on it, Ribbon’s blood, she was sure. Clutching the ribbon in her hand, she looked at the note once more, looking for more words where there were none. It only said five.


You could have just asked.

Little Red and Her Monkey (Crimson Splashes) [Series-wise]
Hot Chocolate (Coffee Shoppe) [Chronologically 'verse-wise]

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in which amadhay chooses wings



Now that Amadhay knew that the teleport wasn’t going to work, she was stuck with a difficult decision.

Actually, it wasn’t all that difficult a decision. She literally only had one choice. She could fly a pegasus or she could stay. Now, considering she had just killed Ribbon, it was pretty obvious that the second option was out of the question, which only left her with flying a pegasus out of there. She had already done her best to ruin all of the other modes of transport so that no one could follow her or continue with their plans. She had removed parts and tossed different things all into the machinery of the automobiles and the teleport. She had broken apart the wheels to the carriages. She had even let the normal horses, Feral dogs and Feral wolves free, which they had enjoyed. Luckily, they had chosen to just run off and not make any loud celebratory noises as they ran.

That left her with the pegasi. She had already tried to convince them that they were free. Apparently the pegasi liked the Palnoki, which she supposed she understood. Atlas treated them well. He personally took care of all six horses, feeding them, washing them, exercising them, making sure they were happy. She doubted too many others would do that.

The problem was, she only needed one to fly. If she left the rest, then that would leave five ways someone could follow her, get Darach, kill Monkey and Benjy, or any of the other various goals they were planning. She couldn’t allow that. Considering her night had already put a strain on her morals, she was having a hard time convincing herself that killing five innocent pegasi was worth it. They had never been anything but gentle with her. They hadn’t reared at her or bucked her off like normal horses, they didn’t attempt to scare her off or intimidate her into doing what they wanted. They were just simple, gentle, nice horses with wings.

Atlas’ pegasus, Ludo, nudged her with his giant head. He blew on her. Ribbon’s pegasus, Grits stayed close to her too. She couldn’t tell if they thought she needed comforting or if the smell of Ribbon’s blood drew them near. The magic of the blood had to be a beacon to all manner of magical creatures. Ludo licked her face.

Almost immediately, his demeanor changed from mildly comforting to furious. The horse reared onto his back legs and kicked at her. Grits got between her and the attacking pegasus with a loud, challenging squeal. Both horses screamed, brandishing their forelegs at each other before Ludo dropped back down. Grits stayed in front of her protectively, neighing at Ludo. Ludo huffed out of his nose and Amadhay was positive that the two horses were arguing. Grits stomped his foot and Ludo seemed to calm down. That, at the very least, decided which pegasus she was taking with her.

“I can’t leave you here,” she told the pegasi, squeezing the blade handle in her hand, trying to convince herself that she could kill the five beasts before her. Ludo snorted at her before giving a relatively loud whinny that made her flinch. All of the pegasi aside from Grits followed Ludo to the door, which he kicked open. And then they just left. Amadhay was too surprised by their actions to stop them, but in all honesty, she couldn’t figure out what was happening.

On the plus side, she hadn’t had to kill five giant, winged horses. On the down side, they were probably just going to come right back once she was gone. She knew she should chase after them, but decided not to. Chasing after winged horses to kill them in the air while on a winged horse did not sound like something she really wanted to do.

Grits snorted and butted her head with his own, making her wince. Her head was still sore from when Ribbon had slammed it into the ground.

“Well, I guess we should get going, huh?” she muttered, patting his flank. She stared at the horse, really not wanting to get on his back and honestly, not sure how she was going to get up there until the horse knelt for her. She paused, trying to figure out some other way to get out of Palnoki without having to fly on the horse. It had been one thing going a short distance with Atlas tight behind her to keep her from falling, but this time she was on her own.

Grits gave an impatient huff to tell her to make up her mind, and Amadhay did. Getting onto the pegasus’ back was as difficult as she had expected, given she not only had to get onto his back (and even with him kneeling, their height difference being over a foot made it incredibly hard) but she also had to avoid his wings, which he tucked into his body as well as he could to get out them of her way. Once she was situated on his back, however, it didn’t get any easier for her. The pegasus moved as though she should be used to riding him. She wasn’t and held onto his mane as tightly as she could.

The only good thing about this was that Grits took direction well. She only had to whisper the word ‘Tierdom’ and he took to the air.

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